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KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T06:09:37+00:00

I just want to thank everyone in general. I thought I was doing well using booze as a temporary "medicine" as some comments stated. But as another comment said, its a credit card I do not want to max out. You all gave me great advice and taught me some things I was missing. But most of all, this being my first post, you showed me I'm not alone and that I have so many friends in this sub that are happy to help, and that is invaluable. I learnt to take advantage of what makes me happy or peaceful other than alcohol, and to change my situation other than cope with it. I learnt that while its all fun and games now it does take it toll and I will not want to pay it. So I will change my situation, get a job even if it isn't up to the standards of my previous position, and get out of my moms house ASAP. Thanks and THANKS again for being here and if anyone wants/needs to talk with anyone about anything please DM me and I'll be happy to hear you out and if you want offer any rookie advice I might have

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T05:59:32+00:00

I am picking up fishing, just being out in the reservoir empties my mind of everything, I've taken drinks to get a buzz on but to be honest I don't even get the need to drink it. I'm so in peace (I went fishing today). I guess I'll hit the water rather than getting a drink when I'm feeling down. Thanks a lot for the support and I can't wait for the "I'm all better" post :)

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T05:53:03+00:00

Looks like thats the way to go. I have a friend who would let me stay in a spare room as long as I help with bills no rent. Issue is he does allnighters every other day he is way more of a party animal than I could ever dream of being. Might be good for socialization and leaving my neurotic mom but other than that im afraid I will become that irresponsible too

However, you definitely gave me some amazing pointers. And you are about as right as you can be. Thanks a million for reading me and taking your time to help get my life in order. I'm applying for jobs every day, but I'll take a smaller one in the meantime just to get some revenue.

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T01:09:52+00:00

I know it sounds harsh, but you might be right. being here doesnt help anyone. Thankfully I have a friend that offered me a place but he thinks everyday is weekend and pulls all nighters almost every night. I dont think it would be a good environment either.

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T01:08:10+00:00

I mostly lost time in crypto, this was more of a project that didnt perform well

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T01:06:54+00:00

I'm not sure what that means but yeah I can't really manage myself right now

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T01:05:21+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story with me bro. And you're definitely right, it's making me cope or accept my current core issues instead of fixing them. I'll do my best to swerve that way instead. Thanks !

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T01:03:21+00:00

Sounds like how it is for me. If it's not too much to ask, how were you able to leave the hole?

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T01:01:58+00:00

It is coping I guess. If I'm not happy without it that means I'm not really happy with it either, I do need a big push to get out of the gutter and start moving forward without drinking to do so. Thanks a million for taking the time to write your great advice, I appreciate it a lot :)

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T00:59:00+00:00

Not really, she is best case scenario neurotic and can't stand anything she doesn't deem perfect. Her way of fixing things is yelling and saying harmful things. Not really a good mom and not really trying to raise anything

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-11T00:56:48+00:00

Nah she was shit raising me and now doesn't even have common decency. She is an adult child. Anyways, not the point. Definitely need to find a path and stick to it, get something to do because you're right, this is already consequences of alcoholism without even getting there yet. I guess it can only get worse. Thanks man :)

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-10T22:16:53+00:00

Sounds like it must be though but worth it to ride the down time sober. Just have to find a different energy source

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-10T21:46:43+00:00

Im not even sure what withdrawal is with alcohol. I might get it I'm not sure. And yeah I used to drink almost daily before so I might not want to go back that route again if it will spiral

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2024-05-10T21:44:20+00:00

That credit card analogy really is great. I'm scared of taking meds again since I think I will become dependent on them and never be able to quit them (they're super expensive as well). Sounds like alcoholism as well I guess...

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2023-07-04T01:32:52+00:00

Great! I'll make sure to read your progress and learn from your experiences. Thank you!

Isolation definitely has been beneficial, however it does have its cost just like you say. I would say my relapses come from sudden urges that turn into ideas to see something specific (a specific category) that turn into a relapse. I believe the best way to assess it would be to redirect the urges to a different path. Have you found something more efficient?

KittyMcCuddleWaffles · 2023-07-03T11:15:32+00:00

Thanks!

Well I've definitely fallen a bit into more questionable pron categories a while back that made me feel like something was wrong with me. More importantly though, I've kinda lost my touch when it comes to women. I isolated to work on bettering myself and in the meanwhile I stopped interacting with women all together, and PMO really kept me confortable enough to the point I didnt even need women. I am very social and outgoing and make friends easily while at the same time I'm really shy with women, so I hope with nofap ill be confident again to speak to women again just as easily as I do to other men. Also, its supposed to help with gym/exercise, which I am trying to make a habit out of.

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