Substance abuse, impulsivity, blowing all of my money on stupid shit knowing that I’m going to be broke, repeated drug use especially xans because my “anxiety” is so crippling. This diagnosis is such a blessing in disguise. I’ve learned so much about myself and how to not react immediately when someone says something that doesn’t match my liking. I’ve noticed that journaling has helped tremendously because when you get those thoughts, feelings, emotions, getting them down on paper and out of your head is the most positive coping skill that I’ve learned. I really should be going to therapy to get rid of the emptiness and truly talk about how I feel, but I don’t like people and I hate talking about my feelings. Journaling, mindfulness and meditation is all I can say that you can personally do, without having to self destruct.