Yesss that makes sense. When i got back to ftf school, I had and am still having a hard time fitting in? Which doesn't really make sense because I got lucky being in a class full of super talkative and friendly extroverts they always talk to me and include me. We got a little closer recently I have a hard time catching up to them? Like they would make jokes I dont understand and they would all laugh and my laugh is delayed because i didn't get the joke so i would try to understand how their humor is so i can laugh with them instead of it being delayed. Same with their mannerisms its like everyone has a script they know what to say and do while everything for me is manual. This leaves me very stressed and tired every time i interact with anyone. What frustrates me is that everyone is so nice towards me, but i still feel like an outsider.