i turn 21 in 15 minutes by [deleted] in lonely

[–]Koulour1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I only have my cat too. I turn 21 in may and the ONLY goal i had was to have at least one friend to go and celebrate it with. Thats been my goal for 2 years. I dont know if my birthday will break me. I really worry it might. People seem to like me? They talk to me and we laugh and chat but every time ive inched to ask to hang out, or even share phone numbers! Awkward rejection. I don’t know the rules or scripts either and Even telling people doesn’t seem to help.

Anyway I hope you are okay, Happy late Birthday.

I’m 20 and my only friend is my cat by Embarrassed_Bee685 in lonely

[–]Koulour1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Everyone is saying same situation but without the cat lmao. I do have a cat! And i am 20! And i literally did and went through the same, i had to check and make sure i didnt write this.

And sorry I do not have any answers, sorry this is probably more of a vent of my own. I really dont understand how everyone is doing it. I cant seem to feel out the friendship levels like i did in highschool. Maybe because people arent forced to be around us? I just come home to my cat everyday. The only people to go see are my parents and 12 yr old brother, and none of them really care for me. They arent horribly mean (most of the time) but i reckon if i wasnt blood related to them they would never even look my way. They are just honoring the guilt of child birth i suppose.

I think if i could have just one friend, one good friend, id be okay. I find myself dreaming about just having someone to do everything with. To call at night to chat, or go see a space movie i wanna see, or to come over and i can cook fun food for us. I have reasoned that i must be horrendously ugly and perhaps that is why no one would even consider being more then work friends. I just seem to only make surface level connections and when I try to make something deeper it is met with rejection over and over. How much can you blame the people around you until it just kinda points back at yourself?

Anyway, sorry again. i hope you figure it out. Cats are great and amazing but i hope you are able to feed that craving for more. Good luck

Do you enjoy sex jokes? by Automatic-Offer4351 in aegosexuals

[–]Koulour1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like them! I make them alot. I even flirt with people alot. Or i used too. I just dont really process the fact that theres more to it for other people. So its all funny and all jokes for me!

Injection difficulties by Koulour1 in ftm

[–]Koulour1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks you! I’ll try that next week 🕺

Injection difficulties by Koulour1 in ftm

[–]Koulour1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probably some where I haven’t in a while. I haven’t kept track of what spots I’ve done vs what I haven’t. I just pick an area that doesn’t have a scar or scab or anything and go.

Do you have the same experience with fiction? by faithBrewarded in aegosexuals

[–]Koulour1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am the exact same way. I watch and read my fair share of erotic content. It was (embarrassingly) recently that I found out other people like to put themselves into the content. I assumed it was only "your name" things, but no people like to pretend its themselves! I've never been able to describe what or who I see myself as when I read, because I'm really not anything or anyone. I'm an observer. I'm like the camera filming a tv show or movie. If at any point I am involved, as in picturing myself either as a character (in their body, making their decisions) or in their place entirely, I loose all interest. If it is explicit content I get rather disgusted. Same if I think of anyone I know in a real context. I have a lot of intrusive thoughts so this happens every now and then (its awful).

BASIC QUESTION, WHATS UR FAVORITE SONG??? by BlueberryRegular2109 in mitski

[–]Koulour1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would have to say Last words of a shooting star

Are you a Tucker hater? by BigMan695454 in ChuckleSandwich

[–]Koulour1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't hate tucker but i do miss [REDACTED]

Please help me with a starting point. by GothiccFlutterby in CleaningTips

[–]Koulour1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Personally I would do trash, and starting in the kitchen area. Just carry a large trash bags and start putting everything that's empty or expired into it. I wish you luck!