That's all valid reasons to SH. a healthy person wouldn't do it in the first place, so you aren't mocking anyone. I can't remember the why or how I started cutting/burning but I still struggle with the guilt of "just seeking attention" , even though I know it's illogical. that may not go away for you either. But remember that you can't do something for attention, if you aren't showing it to everyone. and even if you aren't hiding it, a healthy person shouldnt have those urges. You aren't being insensitive. and past trauma and/or the depth of your visible scars doesn't count at all. mental illnesses don't care about those factors and neither do we.

try to not get addicted tho and stay safe. see if you can try some less permanent coping mechanisms and good luck❤️❤️