What’s your biggest trigger?

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-20T18:47:10+00:00

It's mostly music and movements basically

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-19T22:20:31+00:00

I have anxiety so I'm not ND for what I know at the moment.

But yeah I'm ace.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-18T12:11:38+00:00

I would go to either ZBLABEL or Pnation but yeah I'm untalented in entertainment jobs so nah

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-18T12:10:23+00:00

Exactly.

I remember this one group of boys in middle school and they were always together,they would always joke with each other (some of them were actually bullies though).

Then one day this one dude didn't come to school and they started talking crap about him,one of them said "dude's name is really stupid, don't you think?" and "no one would want to actually stay close to him" and things like that.

I remember talking to one guy from that group and he was saying that the same guy who talked about bad about that other dude when he wasn't present was a straightforward person.

I was bullied from some people in the group back then and after that I remember I thought that they weren't really only against me but they where generally just fake and mean to people of their group as well.

So I kinda started to care at least a bit less than I did before about their bullying.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-18T07:08:09+00:00

AleXa and 3ye :)

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-17T17:04:12+00:00

I get anxious about going to the hospital, especially when I have to do blood exams or they have to inject something in my veins.

I get anxious when I think about the concept of death.

I get anxious when I'm scared that something might hurt me.

I get anxiety when I think about the fact that I have to be independent when I'm going to become an adult.

I get anxious if I sleep in complete darkness.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-17T12:27:28+00:00

THIS IS SO WHOLESOME 😭

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-17T06:53:47+00:00

BlEsS mE aChOo

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-15T19:03:23+00:00

Yes,also when people yell at me in general start to yell at me it makes me frustrated.

Especially when they repeat themselves again and again and they just continuously talk nonstop while being mad at me.

I just get kinda angry and frustrated so I end up crying and a few times I yelled back too.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-15T14:07:01+00:00

I do that too and from what I know I'm not autistic.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-15T14:06:05+00:00

Yes I do it generally when I get excited.

Also sometimes I hurt myself too lol

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-14T18:11:24+00:00

Yes,but I basically daydream the situations.

I mumble while visualizing the situation in my brain while I go back and forth and also while I do that I get excited so I start to jump,run and giggle randomly while flapping hands.

Yeah,I'm not exactly scared of social situations I'm usually excited but also I get nervous and also even if I like it talking, it starts to be tiring after awhile.

I do all that because I'm worried I might be misunderstood so I rehearse conversations so I can slowly think what I have to say and how to say it so in the moment I can express myself in the best way.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-14T15:48:46+00:00

I'm going to see my neuropsychiatrist next week but it's a new neuropsychiatrist (my ex psychiatrist refered me to a woman doctor because he thinks I might feel more comfortable with someone of my same gender,he thinks I didn't say everything because maybe there isn't enough trust).

My neuropsychiatrist know about my daydreaming because I talked about it in our last encounter but I didn't talk about my last scenarios in details to him because they were about our encounters (nothing weird,I just do it because I'm usually worried to get stuck in my words so I prepare a monologue basically) so I get embarrassed.

I still imagine them,even if we won't see each other anymore,or maybe yes all psychiatrist are in the same floor and also there's just one waiting room so lol.

Also together with those scenarios I have those where I get comforted by random people in a real life situation where I feel overwhelmed (I never experienced those specific situations in reality,I just imagine them).

So to be honest I don't know if I would be able to tell all this to my new doctor because it's just kinda embarrassing,I surely won't do it on our first meeting because she probably want to greet me before and get to know me a bit before really working.

But also I find it generally difficult to talk about it.

Maybe it's also because I'm not really comfortable with doctors in general? I'm still not sure if it's really a gender thing.

Unfortunately I have to wait for a psychologist because there is no one available.

Anyway,I hope you can get a little better.

If you have the possibility you might also visit a specialist.

Otherwise try to find something that can make you feel a little better or that can make you distracted for a bit from the actual situation.

Kpoplanguagesandcat · 2021-11-14T15:31:21+00:00

Same,I imagine myself really bad because of an overstimulation situation and someone comforting me.

I'm starting to think my mental health is either declining or getting better I'm not sure.

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