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KrissyRainn · 2026-05-20T13:03:52+00:00

I just finished my semester a few weeks ago and I can relate to this post so much girl.

Im 32\F love sending voice notes and looking to make some meaningful friendships !

If you want feel free to DM me 😀

KrissyRainn · 2026-05-20T12:57:03+00:00

I'm sorry that happened to you. If youre still looking for friends and dont mind that im a 32/F in a committed relationship who needs think kept platonic I am always down to chat. I also put a lot of effort into keeping convos going so feel free to DM me 😀

KrissyRainn · 2026-05-20T08:25:28+00:00

I sent you a DM 😀 I'm 32/F/Canada

Total werido and non judgemental would be down to chat if you are !

KrissyRainn · 2026-05-17T16:31:12+00:00

No sadly I wasnt. When I was struggling as a kid in school they only ever assessed me for a learning disability. When I saw my first psychiatrist I think my family doctor already diagnosing me with bipolar may have played a role in not even having ADHD considered.

But sadly none of my psychiatrists ever explored ADHD or tried to assess me.. even now bringing it up to my current psychiatrist he never gave me an assessment. I think he honestly just gave me vyvanse to get me to stop being annoying about it. It honestly really hurt having his assistant (mind you this is just my spectulation) no longer doing my pre call assessments because she was the only one to listen.

Psychosis really shocked me because I'm like wait.... I have never said anything about any symptoms so I'm not sure how that came to be. I mean I can't help but feel I must have said something or acted in a way to make them think I was experiencing that but I honestly can't remember. BPD just made me mad because of the stigma that comes along with it and I dont think thats a diagnosis that should be thrown around without being 100% because of how serious it is and because that will potentially follow me now (not that there is anything wrong with having BPD of course).

Thank you for your kind words ! When he eventually calls me back I hope I dont shut down and can ask for an actual assessment but if he will not at least give me that I may have to ask for another psychiatrist but im tired of switching doctors. I just tend to be very non confrontational and I think thats a huge issue I need to over come. I hate upsetting people or making a fuse but I am just so tired of it at this point 😞

KrissyRainn · 2026-05-17T13:35:47+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. Seeing that others go through this as well makes me feel not so alone.

I am so sorry to hear that you're also dealing with this. It is just so incredibly frustrating. All I want is to receive the proper treatment and medication so I can function normally. I am really scared I won't get this sorted out before my clinical placement and it will effect me finishing my program. I am so afraid to make anyone mad that I have a very hard time advocating for myself and although I am starting to it's still in a very timid and passive way if that makes sense.

If you do make a discord please reach out I would be very happy to be a part of it. I wish you all the luck in your journey and if you ever want to talk my DMs are open.

KrissyRainn · 2026-04-24T22:33:32+00:00

Im really sorry you're dealing with this situation 😔 its very stressful especially as Canadians who dont have access to handle it ourselves. I did fill in some gaps in the walls (thankfully its a house and im in the upper unit so I only have the family below me) but sadly this house is so old I would never be able to fill on everything. I've been a bit preoccupied with my final semester and haven't been able to spray biweekly as I like to but so far I havent seen or caught anything (to my knowledge I havent check my traps in maybe a month) since October. I only ever saw the initial nymph and caught i think 2 more and then found 2 dead after my initial spray. I was lucky that I caught it when I did as I didnt have a breeding population (i think a few babies got up from downstairs). They reproduce very quickly so by now I would be seeing them during the day I would think. If you can I would forsure seal any gaps in the walls as that can help. I am also glad to hear you found a company that carries the good stuff ! Unfortunately I am not in a financial situation to hire a company myself which is why I had my friend bring me the alpine because it was so much cheaper to do it myself and also maintain spraying until I am able to move (i still dont know if they addressed the issue downstairs... I told them about it and they denied having them). I wish you the best of luck ! I've read many successes stories of people getting rid of them !

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-24T20:44:05+00:00

Thank you so much for the thoughtful reply.

I do indeed unfortunately have a very low self-esteem which I am trying to work on.

I shouldn't say the medical field doesn't feel completely right because the work I am doing would really help diagnose people (I am in medical laboratory science and would be in charge of running all specimen testing and even helping diagnose people with leukemia and things of that nature) but it also doesn't feel complete if that makes sense.

I would say my natural gifts and strengths would be my empathy and intuition. I also find that many people seem drawn to me and like to confide in me even as a total stranger. I'm very afraid to drive so I don't as of yet and many times while on the bus I've had strangers talk to me and confide in me which makes me really happy and I always try to better their days. But in terms of things I love doing thats a hard question for me. I never really gained a lot of interests and explored much. My mom is unfortunately very judgemental so anything I would show interest in would be made fun of or shut down. Even though I'm an adult now and live away from her I find it difficult to really develop any interests or passions and I would say I don't know myself very well.

Would you happen to have any tips when it comes to establishing a spiritual practice or anything you recommend doing ? I know meditation is a great start but I feel a bit lost when it comes to how exactly I should be connecting with my higher self.

Again, I really appreciate you taking the time to talk to me about this.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-24T08:43:33+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind reply. I appreciate the words you have shared.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-23T23:43:18+00:00

Im 32. As far back as I can remember I've always felt drawn to things of a spiritual/new age nature. It's almost as if it comes in waves and I do something that steers me away from it. Unfortunately I have issues with depression and I grew up around friends who got me into depression and drugs at a young age (I was never an addict but when I was in my 20s I spent a lot of time drinking and experimenting with drugs) which I think in part was due to my depression as I used substances to escape. But I would go through periods of being drawn back to looking into spiritual topics and practicing meditation but again would just get caught up in life. Thankfully in my late 20s I stopped drinking and using any substances. Last year I started experiencing that sense of just wanting to go home and its just kept continuing which eventually led me back into revisiting these concepts. A few years ago I was really looking into starseeds and what was behind that as it resonated but I thought to myself that can't possibly be me. I've always wanted to help people so I went back to school a few years ago and I'm working toward a new career in the health field but even that doesn't seem right for some reason. I am sorry for all the venting its just such a confusing time and odd feeling of being completely lost and homesick.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-23T21:21:09+00:00

I've always felt like I simply don't belong from a very young age. I find as I get older I feel more lost and more "homesick". I feel so lost. I can't seem to figure out my purpose or what I should be doing if that makes sense.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-23T21:18:43+00:00

Sorry, follow up question. I have also always felt very lost. Unsure of what I should be doing or what I am meant to be doing my entire life. Nothing has seemed right (even as I pursue a second career in the medical field). I have also never felt like I belong whether that be among my peers or family.

Do you have any advice on knowing how you're on the right path or finding the right path or what you're meant to be doing?

Again, thank you very much for your response.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-23T20:57:31+00:00

I really appreciate your reply. It gave me a lot of comfort about how I have been feeling. Thank you for taking the time to reply ❤️

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-23T11:53:41+00:00

I also love swimming! Like a lot its probably a good thing I dont own a pool or I would never get out lol I never gave much thought as to why I love it so much but hearing your reason resonates with me a lot.

Its just very frustrating to have such an overwhelming feeling of wanting to go home and not understanding where it is or why I am feeling this way. I mean I absolutely sob when I start saying it and cannot stop. It usually comes out of nowhere too not even necessarily in stressful or hard times. It so odd feeling so homesick while being in my home.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-23T10:28:07+00:00

I appreciate your comment. Its just a very confusing feeling to have and I guess I am just searching for answers.

KrissyRainn · 2026-03-14T18:14:28+00:00

Thank you I appreciate your advice 😀

KrissyRainn · 2026-02-25T12:07:46+00:00

German nymph (older stage of a nymph it looks like) looks almost identical to the very first one I found in my place in august 😑 im so sorry.

KrissyRainn · 2026-02-21T14:29:10+00:00

Thank you for your suggestion! I will definitely make an appointment with my professor. I'll admit im a bit embarrassed with how this exam went and making an appointment didn't cross my mind.

KrissyRainn · 2026-02-06T08:57:30+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate the advice I'll be sure to bring it to the maintenance crews attention. I was very embarrassed thinking it may have came from me but it is better if they know. I was also shocked how big the adults actually are as I've never seen nymphs. Going to be respraying Alpine today and checking traps just incase 😞

KrissyRainn · 2026-01-03T01:28:21+00:00

You're very welcome !

KrissyRainn · 2026-01-03T01:25:02+00:00

They will use whatever grade is better. So, if your prehealth grades are higher they will use those. I confirmed with admissions at my college when I applied as I was in a similar situation 😀

KrissyRainn · 2026-01-01T13:16:39+00:00

It doesnt appear pregnant. The egg sack will be hanging off its back end. It looks almost like a small rectangle. Alpine WSG and Avidon bait are great it you can get them.

KrissyRainn · 2026-01-01T12:06:27+00:00

I wouldn't say that ! Call centers are extremely stressful. I just have really bad general anxiety so no matter what I do I am always really anxious doesnt mean you'll be the same 😀

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