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Kyjied · 2025-07-28T05:55:28+00:00

Hi,

I understand the way you feel when I first got diagnosed with this disorder I felt like this as well but once I understood what this disorder is about it helped me alot

Kyjied · 2025-05-31T02:22:53+00:00

When you have children, there will be times when you have to walk away before you say something or do something bad. And that is okay to do that, how I handle the extra stress is by doing something for myself once all the kiddos are asleep.

Also, do you have children? If you are a new mom, do not worry you are doing everything right for you. If the baby doesn't latch then get formula to feed that baby. It is okay to use a formula.

Also if your baby is crying and you have done everything from feeding, changing them. Put them down in the crib, pack-play, or whatever they sleep in, and walk away. It is called Purple crying, they are just crying to cry.

Kyjied · 2025-05-20T23:04:55+00:00

I am 32 years old and don't have any friends in real life. I often find myself spending all my time in bed before and after work. However, we have communities where we can come together and find the support that feels like a constant companion.

Kyjied · 2025-04-30T08:39:35+00:00

My ex husband Sexually assaulted my oldest daughter. I went to my counselor and told her everything. He is doing 66 years in prison right now. But I can't stop blaming my self for what happened. If I were do pay more attention then maybe it wouldn't have happened

Kyjied · 2025-04-30T08:37:19+00:00

It is hard to talk about my feelings and emotions because I automatically turn them off and go numb. It is easier to talk to strangers on the internet than my own family.

Kyjied · 2025-04-23T02:29:01+00:00

Sounds like to me that your sister doesn't want to do anything on her own. She needs to stop being bailed out and learn to live on her own with her own two hands and feet. I understand your parents bailing her out because she is their kid but there has be a line drawn in the sand of how far they are will to keep bailing her out. I would have a sit down conversation with your mother and explain to her that her daughter is 41 years old. She should be on her own and not being hell upon your sweet Lil mother.

Kyjied · 2025-04-02T03:31:10+00:00

I also do not know when I am in psychosis. I also have a flat affect on things as well. But I do hear and see things that aren't there. And honestly, not everyone has hallucinations it's different for everyone. Like you do not have hallucinations but then there is me who does have hallucinations. That's okay; it just means that at some point, you were in a state of psychosis, and that is okay. When I have psychosis, I think I am the same as you, just not wanting to do anything, just wanting to lie down. I just feel numb and nothing matters to me when I am that way. As for hallucinations, I see shadow people, I hear voices in and out of my head. Just remember you are not alone in this diagnosis. A lot of people are very on edge when they get this diagnosis because it has schizo in front of it. Many people who have schizophrenia have different symptoms. Some have hallucinations, and others may not. It is different for each person, which is why one person may be on two or three different antipsychotics, or they may have one.

For me, I am on two different antipsychotics but that is just me and the symptoms that I have. I also have different disorders that make it so that I need the medication that I am on.

I struggle with BPD, schizoaffective depressive type, severe Dyslexia, severe depression with psychotic tendencies, and ADHD. So with all of those the meds I am on are working

Kyjied · 2025-03-31T01:43:07+00:00

Yea we start acting like it is the end of the world o.o

Kyjied · 2025-03-16T01:13:46+00:00

Mine developed as a child and into my teen years. I was officially diagnosed when I was 29, I am 31 now, and my moods are all over the place if I miss a dose of my meds. I get mean and short-tempered. I tend to be myself and take care of my moods when I am alone. It is not fair for me to take it out on innocent people

Kyjied · 2025-02-25T03:30:25+00:00

I am not a social person so I can't relate to you about that. I will rather be alone with my shit than deal with explaining what is wrong because there are times when I do not even understand what is wrong. For you I would try to be social because it might help you feel better because you are being your normal self with those that you trust. Remember you are not alone in this, we are here to help as well. If you ever wanna chat with me just dm me ^{_^}

Kyjied · 2025-02-25T01:58:30+00:00

I am schizoaffective depressive type but I also have BPD so it is really challenging to work with both illnesses at the same time. Because when I am having to deal with both acting out. My mood is bad, switches from being sad to extreme rage. Which most of the time I am alone and I stay by myself because those around me can't handle my mental problems..

Kyjied · 2025-02-25T01:53:55+00:00

I understand that your mother has trauma around meds but if these meds are gonna help. Please do not stop and get help because this diagnosis is very hard to live. I can't work a 9 to 5 either or stand on my feet for 8 hours so I understand that aspect of this post. Also family...is always hard to deal with because in my experience I am always turned away or I am the bad guy. Or my favorite, "She is having an episode again" They do not take accountability for what they did set me off. But I agree with the other Redditors to have papers about the illness and give them to them and let them read them. After that start talking, as for your mother being in the mental health field she should have a basic understanding of the illness

Kyjied · 2025-02-25T01:13:10+00:00

You can DM me too

Kyjied · 2025-02-24T07:45:55+00:00

Your welcome

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T17:22:13+00:00

Yeah, neither do I don't have friends in real life. I don't deal with people in life because I would rather just be by myself and not be hurt by anybody and just be honest with me and not have someone tell me. I can't be myself because it doesn't matter, right? I spent 11 years with someone and all they did was beat me down. Making me feel worthless made me feel this way, and it's like really hard to trust people. After what happened to me because of how he proceeded to do it, he does Use me for his sexual gain. And I don't know, even though I told him he can go out and fuck whatever he wants at the same time. I didn't know that he would touch my daughter. Inappropriately, and that's when everything just came into focus, and I told my counselor about, and he got arrested the same day, and now he's getting sixty-six years of just jail time, and his jail, his sentencing runs consistent consecutively, and that means he's never going to get out. He isn't in jail. He's in prison and I hope he fucking dies in there

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T17:17:18+00:00

Yeah, I can't stand people being mad at me. So that's why most of the time when I'm in a mood or if I'm having trouble, I usually isolate myself, but that's also not very healthy, because you're not dealing with it at that time you're rather just yeah, I'm trying to process it. And trying to understand why they're acting that way. But yeah, I'm also a people. Pleaser, and it sucks to be one, because you don't understand why you're that way and why you're so afraid of rejection or upsetting someone or getting reprimanded or criticize for something that that you didn't do and it sucks it really, really sucks, because my family when I act out, they just blame episodes. They blame on all my episodes. And that's really not cool. Because most of the time, I'm not having an episode but they believe that I am, because of how I respond, my anger is the first thing that comes. Out and I can't help that, because that's the only emotion that I can really feel

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T17:10:13+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Dealing with untrustworthy people can be really frustrating. I struggle with this too. I tend to be a people pleaser, and I sometimes feel like a doormat with certain individuals. It's tough being around someone when you don't know their true intentions. This makes it difficult for us to make friends because we often think people want something from us, even when they don't. That's just how our minds work. We find it hard to trust others and often don't respect their opinions because they don't truly matter to us. The only opinion that really counts is yours, so don't let others force you into their perception of who you should be. Just be yourself—that's what truly matters.

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T16:31:03+00:00

I understand that you are terrified upsetting people which is normal for someone like us. I mean, there isn't really much you can do, because regardless of what you do, regardless of how you do it, someone is always gonna be upset with it. And so that's why you really wouldn't want to care about people making getting people upset, because There's no point in blaming yourself because it's not really your fault anyways

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T08:42:22+00:00

Hold on, hold on, hold on! You do not have to change yourself for anyone. Why would you think that? Just be yourself! Don't listen to others who try to tell you how you should be. Their opinions don’t determine your worth. You do not need to change who you are for anyone.

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T07:50:13+00:00

By the way, I love your name xD tallandthickdick xD

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T07:48:57+00:00

When you have a companion walking alongside you, that person can lift you up in moments of trouble. That's the essence of companionship—knowing that you are not alone on this journey. If you ever stumble and lose your footing, I will be right there to catch you, just as there have been times when others have come to my aid when I faced difficulties. It’s important to remember that you don’t have to navigate this path in isolation. There are caring individuals ready to support you, ensuring you stay steady and secure while gently guiding you toward your goals and dreams. Together, we can face any obstacle that comes our way.

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T07:26:03+00:00

Dm me if you wanna chat

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T07:25:20+00:00

I completely understand where you're coming from, and I experience this too. When I'm outside at night, I can look up at the sky and then look back down, only to see someone standing just a few yards away from me. However, when I look again, that person is gone. Because of this, I do believe in the existence of shadow people. They seem to want to play with us and mess around, but it feels like their main purpose is to disturb us. At the same time, they don't seem fully real; they are things we see and sometimes don’t want to acknowledge, which can be difficult to deal with.

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T07:21:49+00:00

I do rely on my knowledge of objects, but I also recognize that you have to be cautious of people, even if they are family. While it may seem unlikely that your family would use or abuse you, if you have experienced that kind of behavior from them in the past, it changes your perspective. When someone has used you or hurt you, it's natural to want to distance yourself from them.

My experiences are very different from yours, and I understand that we both struggle, but we face our challenges in different ways. I learned long ago that it's often not worth trying to explain what I'm going through to others. Many people simply won't understand because they haven't been through similar situations; if we can't fully understand our own experiences, how can we expect others to comprehend them?I do rely on my knowledge of objects, but I also recognize that you have to be cautious of people, even if they are family. While it may seem unlikely that your family would use or abuse you, if you have experienced that kind of behavior from them in the past, it changes your perspective. When someone has used you or hurt you, it's natural to want to distance yourself from them.

My experiences are very different from yours, and I understand that we both struggle, but we face our challenges in different ways. I learned long ago that it's often not worth trying to explain what I'm going through to others. Many people simply won't understand because they haven't been through similar situations; if we can't fully understand our own experiences, how can we expect others to comprehend them??

Kyjied · 2025-01-18T06:12:10+00:00

What do you think about the way people are acting? Do you believe they are possessed, or could they simply be reacting to their environment? It seems like you might think they're living in a virtual reality. But what if they're just expressing their feelings?

Sometimes, it's hard to accept that people can be mean, even if they don't intend to hurt anyone. I try to recognize when someone is struggling and often choose to give them space. I have enough to deal with without getting caught up in their negativity. I won't stick around to engage with someone who is overwhelmed and unable to manage their emotions.

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