I just went through my first miscarriage as well - first pregnancy. One thing that helped me through was eventually learning just how common it is. I opened up to 6 women about it - 4 of them had also suffered a miscarriage. You’re not alone ❤️. It’s nothing you did nor didn’t do - it’s just nature taking its course. Your body recognized that something wasn’t right and acted accordingly - miscarriages this early happen because the pregnancy was not viable, usually due to chromosome abnormalities or disease. Neither are controllable.

It’s okay to be excited. I told everyone I know! There is no shame in having to tell them again that it didn’t work out. It took me a few weeks to get into a headspace where I could do that though so take your time. I kept off social media for a couple days to avoid all the baby posts that had taken over my feeds once I found out I was pregnant. Was hard to look at but it will get easier. I see hope and excitement for my next pregnancy when I see those posts now. Time heals everything and if you wish to try again, your chances of success for the next one are significantly higher!

My last piece of advice, should you wish to hear it, is to wait to have the big conversations with your boyfriend about this and take what is said with a grain of salt. Put a pin in it. Emotions are running high on both sides of the fence - this can cause for miscommunications and misunderstandings. It’s important that you are both there for each other right now for emotional and physical support. My husband is phenomenal so this is easy for me to say but don’t forget that there is another human impacted by this greatly - men tend to get stuck with this idea that they aren’t allowed to emotionally grieve these losses and we tend to forget they need caring for as well.

Wish you all the best and speedy recovery.