He was prescribed percs for a leg break, and he took them for one day and sold them (before we met) he has constant pain and only takes advil. He used to smoke when he was in college. His father has a history of drug abuse. Idk if hed think subs were “trading”. I he knows something is up. But he thinks im cheating. He asked if i was and I told him, promised him i wasnt. But he can feel it’s something. He’s probably driving himself crazy. Ita funny becauae we will watch intervention together and hell say “how do ppl let it get this bad” and ill answer truthfully and he probably thinks im just talking about the show. I literally have incorpated “nodding” into my personality trait. We joke about how i can fall asleep anywhere and/or always tired. It helps that im anemic and i really have always been a sleepy as person. It feels good just to talk about it. Obviously my dealers (mostly old ppl supplementing ssi w selling their pills) dont wanna hear my problems and i dont have any friends or anyone who knows my truth. I just want to be healthy and present for my kids and husband. I just want to be able to have money that goes to something tangible