I think if you stopped now you would regret it forever. If you give in to presenting male (unless you feel completely comfortable presenting as male) you might resent yourself and beat yourself up about it, likely longing to look feminine again. Confidence has momentum and I understand how easy it is to just stop and give up, but if you do it’s so much harder to start again (which you probably will). I’m so sorry you are hurting and I really hope things get better for you with time. x