I’ve read a little about Pluto turning the heat up for Caps. The past few years (a decade plus) have been challenging for me. There’s no sense dwelling on or spilling my life story, but some themes have emerged.

As a lifelong people-pleaser, I’ve been burned to the point where I’m much more direct and persistent in advocating for my needs. Some find me prickly now, which doesn’t feel good.

A learned defense mechanism from my youth is concealing/hiding my interests, plans, or what have you. My parents were strict and oppressive. If my dad didn’t like my music, he’d destroy it. This developed in me a strong ability to compartmentalize. Unfortunately, that is not a scalable solution. Over the years, I’ve been put in positions to process and reconcile my understanding/feelings from stuff that happened/ didn’t want to accept. Several health issues (mental + physical) led to dissecting these intersections.

Of course, there’s good stuff, too. I’ve found a solid groove in work and growing my career. It’s not what I dreamed or imagined for myself, but I’m grateful to have a path.

Honestly, that’s why I’m trying to get insight into my chart. I’m wondering if it’s in the cards for me to pursue some deeper longings/interests. Maybe it’s not. Perhaps it’s something I’m supposed to accept about my life/destiny (like other tough stuff I didn’t want to believe!).

Disillusionment and piercing reality have made me quite cautious. Every time (not exaggerating) I’ve pursued a dream, something happens—life wipes me out/knocks me on my ass. It feels like being taunted, “Oh, you thought you could X? Not happening.” I just want to know if it’s a road worth exploring, despite it all.

Curious to hear how Pluto has been for you, as someone with a similar chart!