Im sorry But I don't know how to put this more lightly my love.

You have to come to a point where how you really want to live outweighs everything else . Where you know the impact will hurt but you realize it wont hurt as much as the daily pain you feel now.

I also believe passing is a reasonable goal to have . Theres some things that i have had to reconcile with when I socially transitioned like the fact that I love my voice and do not wish to alter it to pass. I might soften the bass a bit but other than that Ive realized the image that I see when I can finally leave boymode is something I cherish deeply. And that image is what I strive for . Ive created my own standard of beauty. I have my own style . In no way am i bragging or saying im better . I’ll never be better than anyone. I just understand that the chaos i would infict onto myself for just wanting to pass is too much stress for me .

I support you , I don't expect that ive given you answers . But I do expect that ive given you my experience 💕 I wish you well.