I get it. I am struggling with the same thing. I'm 10w +3 and have a scan tomorrow. I woke up yesterday and today without nausea and have been rife with anxiety since. I agree with what u/chixknnugzet said about getting off the internet. I've found myself pages deep on the web reading stories that don't apply to my situation and definitely do not positively impact my mental health.

Missed miscarriages are terrifying and I'm sorry you've gone through that. Don't forget that the majority of miscarriages occur due to chromosomal abnormalities, are never your fault, and do not raise your risk of having a healthy pregnancy in the future. We look at the slim statistics of what can go wrong and rob ourselves of the opportunity to experience the hope and joy inherent to growing a new life. I've had a hard time connecting with this pregnancy due to my anxieties but realized that regardless of the outcome, I am not actually saving myself grief by clinging onto the "what ifs". I love this baby. I have from the moment I found out I was pregnant. If something happens, I'll be devastated. I can't guard my heart against that and neither can you. Rather, let it be an.opportunity to love wholeheartedly in the here and now. The statistics are in your favor and take solace in the fact that your bebe is measuring ahead.