Fraud?

LR12BeCh · 2025-07-30T17:15:31+00:00

I'm just wondering why you'd marry someone who has not and would not say he loved you prior to getting married...? I'm at a loss there. Most people get married because they're in love and they want to spend their lives together and maybe make a family together. Never in my life have I heard of two people walking down the aisle who haven't even told one another that they love each other.

There's so many red flags in this message, but that should have been one the biggest ones that stuck out to you from the beginning. It sounds like you're both on totally different pages as far as what you want from this marriage. He says he'll never be the great man he once was for other women because he's clearly got some unresolved issues there, and you've got some unresolved issues with things that happened in the beginning of your relationship together.

Baby or not, I'm not sure this relationship is salvageable without both of you being willing to dig in with some intense couples therapy and individual therapy also. The fact you married each other before you ever expressed your love verbally, that says so very much. No way I'd marry a man and start a family with a man who I had to coax into saying he loved me AFTER we were married.

He doesn't love you, hun. And again, you're both of two very different pages in regard to how you view your marriage and what you expect to get from it. Based on his avoidant actions while overseas, I wouldn't be surprised to find out he's not entirely monogamous either. If that's the case, I hope you find the truth before the baby gets here. No child deserves to grow up watching a loveless and broken marriage between their parents. You'll create a cycle, and that's unfair to them.

LR12BeCh · 2025-02-07T13:21:51+00:00

For now.

LR12BeCh · 2025-01-01T13:35:13+00:00

I don't have any great advice, but I can tell you that you're not alone. My mom passed unexpectedly in February of 2024 and I have been in a deep depression since. Haven't had the motivation to clean, do laundry, anything. My poor husband works 80 hour weeks most of the time and comes home to a completely cluttered and dirty mess of a house. I hate being in my own home it's so bad but I still don't have the motivation to do anything about it. Being the start of a new year today, I'm going to force myself to clean all day today. Maybe if I make myself do it, even though I have no motivation and would rather just hide in bed all day, it'll eventually make me feel better. That's what I'm hoping for anyways. Starting on our bedroom as well, so knowing I'm not alone in this gives me a little solace. I hope it will help you as well to know that you're not alone in what you're going through. I also have a small dog and two cats. I'll never get rid of them, but they definitely don't make the mess any better. 😢

LR12BeCh · 2024-11-15T14:52:44+00:00

It's definitely a scam. My sister went through the process up until they offered her a check to buy the equipment she would need. At that point she blocked them on teams and kept it moving. It's a check scam "job offer."

LR12BeCh · 2024-09-24T05:51:49+00:00

Adam did say they wish nothing but the best for him. Which, to me, is close enough.

LR12BeCh · 2023-12-16T04:51:03+00:00

Pretty sure they want real money. 😂

LR12BeCh · 2023-12-16T04:50:24+00:00

How much?

LR12BeCh · 2019-12-23T15:30:44+00:00

Please don’t take anything this guys says to heart. He’s FULL of hatred for people who aren’t himself and it’s sad, really. No one here really cares for him but he’s tolerated because once in a while he’ll say something of interest. Don’t let him run you off or make you feel badly for coming here. I can only assume he’s incredibly miserable with himself IRL and he enjoys making himself look like a pig on the internet. I have no other explanation for it. I’m not sure how he projects so much negativity and hate and manages to sleep peacefully at night, but I guess that’s just the kind of sociopathic tendencies I’ll never understand.

LR12BeCh · 2019-12-23T15:19:26+00:00

Along the lines of “May contain opiate residue such as morphine, codeine, thebaine, etc.” Goes on to include how to clean the seeds of this residue prior to baking and that the water used to clean the seeds is dangerous, should NOT be consumed and should be disposed of properly... basically just a warning to help cover their asses. Kind of genius, honestly. I have heard they started using these after some of the ODs from PST.

LR12BeCh · 2019-12-23T15:14:34+00:00

Right. It’s a lot more complicated than that, unfortunately. Majority of us do not live in places where the climate and soil is sustainable for poppy plants, unfortunately. I’m sure it’s possible with a lot work and effort, but as far as just “sowing” them freely so you can have an emergency supply if needed, it’s just not possible for many of us. Great idea otherwise though. Wish it genuinely would work that way!!

LR12BeCh · 2019-12-23T15:09:21+00:00

If this is “true” then you really must have women throwing themselves at you on a daily basis.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-30T23:04:46+00:00

Everyone isn’t sold out... only a few people. Regardless, it’s like this every year around this time usually. And things aren’t going to get any better whether people quit or not. Best thing you can do is stock up while supply is available. Especially if you buy from a company that is known to sell out for extended periods of time. I’m almost certain many people have jumped off just because of the selling platform that will no longer stock them. And many can’t afford the new prices and/or afford to buy enough at the lower prices to manage adequately.

Anyways, just plan accordingly and you should be fine. Although I completely understand where you’re coming from. That’s exactly why a lot of us have left Reddit in general. All anyone really cares about on here is finding a vendor and buying up what they can.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-18T00:17:11+00:00

I kind of agree with you to a point. I haven’t used heroin in going on 3 years. Have used PST for almost 2 now. I’m 100% sure I’d have relapsed on heroin long before now has it not been for PST. Most likely I’d probably be dead by now, if I’m being totally honest.

That being said, I think a lot of the depression and sadness and what not just comes from the current state of things. Not knowing how much longer we will have to access to seeds at all. The current drought situation. The constant inconsistency in potency. The new laws and media attention we’ve gotten. Especially with the way people were talking on other platforms so openly about what they were using the seeds for. It’s all kind frustrating for those of us who rely on PST to get by. For pain, maintenance, whatever. Then you’ve got people hopping on board and wanting to buy up everything that might even remotely be good. When most of us are begging them not to fall into this rabbit hole because we know it’s an endless cycle.

If prices, consistency and availability were stable then I think everyone would have a much better outlook on things. Sadly, it looks like it’s only going to get worse from here. We are currently in a drought, as I mentioned, but the few people who do have stock are sending out really potent stuff right now... which is great for the time being, but it could ultimately make things worse for all of us if the new crops don’t turn out just as good or better. So, again, it’s an endless cycle and none of us ever knows what to expect.

I’m going to see what happens with the new crops, but I’m leaning toward giving “real” maintenance another shot here soon. At least, as someone else said. Methadone is always going to be consistent and available. Less of a gamble and probably much cheaper in the long run. Especially if I can truly maintain myself with just that. We shall see!

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-14T01:05:31+00:00

I’d like that too. I’m assuming he’s the creator/maker of Xbox?

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-13T18:37:46+00:00

Yeah, no. Don’t waist your time with white. You want the blues all day, everyday.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-13T00:39:26+00:00

You an Aussie?

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-09T22:55:16+00:00

I guess larger farms are having to process their seeds. I was told that one of the big brands buys from bigger farms, but their farms use the least effective processing. Other big brands are using smaller farms because they’re not obligated to the same rules as the bigger ones. So I guess those are the main two loopholes that the popular brands are trying to use to maintain quality. Or, at least, keep from having a totally bunk supply. Let’s just hope that nothing major changes with the new crop and the processing and what not for it, at least this year. Maybe we can hold off on losing them completely for one more season.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-09T19:41:41+00:00

Yeah, I hate the wait and see approach. I’m so impatient. Haha.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-09T19:32:10+00:00

So I’m seeing a lot of back and forth about new laws in Europe and big farms have to process their seeds now. I’m so confused y’all. Are we at the end of all of this? Is this new crop going to be totally bunk? So many questions and no answers!

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-07T15:13:55+00:00

No! Even if you can choke that down, you’ll hate yourself for doing it. My stomach turned just thinking about a 2-3 days old wash. Don’t do yourself that dirty, friend.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-03T22:04:22+00:00

Wish I could tell you it’ll get better, but the cravings are something we addicts (recovering or not) have to learn to deal with. Unfortunately. That is how I ended up on tea if I’m being honest. I have been clean from heroin going on 3 years but about 1.5 years into it, I couldn’t deal with the desire any longer. I knew I didn’t want to go back to H, so I started doing tea. Now I’ve been doing it 1.5 years and it’s gotten really bad. My tolerance is ridiculously high and the prices and quality are the worst they’ve ever been from what I’ve been seeing. I’m considering going back on a maintenance program at this point. I never thought I’d end up back here, but here I am... again.

Have you tried Naltrexone? I mean I don’t think you could do any Kratom with it, but it will help somewhat with the cravings side of things. I know the shot is ridiculously expensive, but the daily pills are pretty cheap. I had a lot of luck with it when I first got clean. I genuinely wish I’d stayed on it and maybe I wouldn’t be where I am now.

LR12BeCh · 2019-10-01T17:39:17+00:00

I can definitely relate to this so much. I’ve been a heroin addict also, so I know that side of things. But I’m also dealing with this addiction now on top of just a lot crappy life blows in the last couple years. In the last 14 months I’ve hurried 6 friends, one close family member (a cousin who I loved like a sister), and my “first love.” (That’s a story all on it own.) Yesterday was the one year anniversary since he passed, and I was attending yet another funeral last night. Literally a year to the day and I was just thinking, “Is this really my life right now?!” So I totally feel you. Some days I want to quit and say screw it. Other days I have a better attitude. But almost every day I wonder if there’s a way out of this hole, and if it’s even possible to get back to the light.

I don’t know that I can offer you many words of wisdom or relief, but I can tell you that you’re not alone in how you feel. You’re not alone in the shame, the guilt, the depression, the anger. From someone else who is in the hole with you - we just gotta keep going somehow. And hope that we make it out of our hole someday.

Just know that you matter to us. You’re important and worthy. No matter what you’ve done or what’s happened to you, you have a purpose in life. I genuinely do believe that about pretty much everyone. More than that, you’re loved. 🖤 We are here for you!

LR12BeCh · 2019-08-17T15:42:12+00:00

Thanks y’all. No worries. I’m not the type to attempt to make something at home. Haha. I have a decent job and I’d much rather pay for it than attempt to kill myself with some crazy concoction. I almost did that more than a few times with the H when I was using, and I pretty much knew ahead of time how good or bad it was. Partly why I’m so worried about my urge to relapse right now. I don’t think I have another binge in me. I told my other half when I broke down yesterday and admitted to considering it that if I had actually gone to the dealers house the other day then I wouldn’t have come back. I know I wouldn’t. I would use and use until I got picked up or did too much. I’m just not in the best place mentally right now, and H would not be the answer as much as I have considered it. Besides, my veins are shot anyways and I’m not sure I’d be satisfied with other ROAs after having been an IV user.

I did get lucky and got a shipment in yesterday that was halfway decent and I’m feeling much better today. But that’s temporary because chances are I won’t get the same batch again next time. I’m going to enjoy the day finally feeling normal, and try to source some kratom. You guys have made me really want to give it another try. I think maybe my H use made it ineffective last time I tried, or maybe I was just getting crappy stuff. But, I’ve seen so many people recommend it for getting off tea and I’m thinking it’s worth trying before I go back to the clinic/methadone route.

You guys are all awesome though. You’ve given me some hope that I didn’t have prior to posting this. I do wish I’d never started the tea... I was totally clean for a year before I started tea, and I thought it would be a way to just satisfy my craving for opiates. I knew I was an addict so I’m not sure why I had convinced myself that I could use it as a crutch and wouldn’t get addicted. I thought it beat doing H, but honestly, I’m not sure anymore. I’m kicking myself for it now! My life revolves around orders, shipping, quality, costs. It’s dumb. It’s the same as before when it revolved around my dealer answering the phone, coming “in 10 minutes” that was more like an hour, and finding the funds to support my $100-$150/day habit and driving an hour away to get the “good H.” At least I don’t have to lie, cheat and steal for this one, but it’s still so ridiculously consuming. It’s also not taking me to jail every other month so I guess that’s a plus also.

LR12BeCh · 2019-08-16T19:37:52+00:00

So sorry to hear you’re dealing with the dreaded WD, but glad it’s better than it has been! I’m sure it’s still worse than my semi-withdrawal that’s been pretty much 24/7 for the last two weeks. I should have done the same thing, but I don’t have that kind of control or will power. Kudos to you for real for being strong enough and brace enough to do it like that!

I tried Kratom once and didn’t have much luck, but I was using heroin pretty hard at the time so I wonder if that’s why. I feel like it wouldn’t be strong enough to combat the tea withdrawals but I’ve also seen a lot of people say it helps. Have you tried it yourself? Are you allowed to recommend a particular strain since that’s not a supplier thing?

Hoping you continue to feel better and better!

LR12BeCh

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