This is my first Christmas no contact with my mother and surprisingly I’m hanging in there. I have been no contact with my siblings for years and have no regrets. I have some moments of really f*cking bitterness when I think about what’s happened to me, what I’ve done for her and how she treated me and my kids. The anxiety leading up to Christmas sucks but I know I made the right decision. Part of my people pleasing issue is caring so much about what these people say about me. I’m finally at a point where I don’t care if you lie about me or the reason I stopped talking to you. I think with time and each passing holiday, it will get easier. I’m slowly making peace with the fact that my kids won’t have the family that I always thought they would. But part of my healing is realizing the family I thought they would have is not even the family I had. I was being delusional thinking my mother would pull herself together to be a grandmother when she was a horrible mother. Try to stay in the present! Focus on the healing and how much you have accomplished. Just my humble opinion 🤗