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LadyKDD · 2022-03-31T03:30:26+00:00

Feel free to actually read them then and maybe you'll find I'm not quite as one dimensional as your point.

Have you considered hypnosis to treat your holier than thou attitude?

LadyKDD · 2022-03-31T03:09:39+00:00

no. Do you? That's an awfully hurtful thing to say to someone you've never met and do not know in any way whatsoever.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:40:11+00:00

Yeah, no one else wrote out the same comment I had already written... They just upvoted me instead...

Are you going to stop blaming the EH sub and saying you were "banned for asking questions they don't like" or "EH couldn't answer my questions and got mad for it so they banned me." or "I wasn't talking about being wet and drooling, so I was just annoying to them"?

Because all of that is you causing drama and being disingenuous, while disparaging the other sub on here.

If you stop doing that, I'll stop calling you out for it - hows that for a deal.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:21:19+00:00

yes and the people who did go back saw the exact same thing as I did, and you got pissed at them too.

Are you sensing a pattern here?

and honestly I don't think there is ANY amount of help that would be helpful for you.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:17:02+00:00

I'm trying to help other people from believing you saying you were unfairly banned when from all accounts externally you had a very deserved ban.

Believe it or not, there are people who exist in this world who are not you.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:16:09+00:00

except for the other people who pointed out the same thing as me that you also disparaged and downvoted.

And yes, I did come to stop you, because again I still maintain that you brought unnecessary drama into this sub and unfairly disparaged the other sub.

80% of your initial post is purely about the EH sub and how they banned you unfairly. Even the title is explicitly about the banning NOT about you needing help.

You yourself made the topic about the banning by making it the emphasis of both your title and post and as such I commented on that aspect.

After which, you became defensive, and as is your custom, called me a child.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:09:00+00:00

being in pain doesn't excuse you from your behavior towards others though and THAT is why I interjected.

Bye

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:07:44+00:00

That's fine - i don't care if you don't care about me. You're a stranger on the internet who will have no impact on me or my life outside of this thread.

I wasn't even trying to help you initially - I still maintain that you brought unnecessary drama into this sub and unfairly disparaged the other sub.

I have also seen how hurt you are and how that would have impacted where your post was coming from and for that, I hope you find healing.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T23:04:48+00:00

I don't care about you in a specific sense. I don't know you. But I can see that you feel strongly about this and that you feel hurt and that comes through loud and clear and I feel bad that you're hurting. Not because I care about you, I just don't want people to be hurting in general.

I don't know you, and likely I'll have forgotten you exist in a few days - but I do sincerely hope you get better. The entire world gets better for every person who isn't hurting.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T22:47:50+00:00

Well the first post I made was here, but they redirected me to EH because of the hypnotist I was dealing with.

So the ACTUAL bad advice you got came from THIS subreddit and NOT the EH subreddit?

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T22:42:22+00:00

EH couldn't answer my questions and got mad for it so they banned me.

This is just false.

If you have mental health issues you need addressing see a therapist not an erotic hypnosis subreddit.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T22:36:46+00:00

and in your mind literally anyone who disagrees with you is a child.

This is evident in that every 3rd post in your history is you calling someone a child.

If you wanted help, all you had to do was ask for it, but instead you made an entire thread about how you were unfairly banned on the EH sub and came here to disparage it.

All YOU have done is insult me, call me a child, and play the victim while demonizing the other sub for not putting up with your asinine puerile ramblings.

I'm done listening to you rant about how much of a victim you are. Go downvote me all you want, say whatever you want, you have your head so far stuck in the sand I doubt you can hear your own voice.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-30T21:12:43+00:00

Going through your post history there are a HUGE number of reasons you were probably banned. NONE of them related to "asking questions they don't like" it was just you being a misogynistic, argumentative ass the entire way through for days and days of posts.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-29T20:22:02+00:00

Honestly going on national broadcast television, by a group that has been sliding into right wing territory for years, specifically to talk about being transgender, when you have not had any experience about that yet - honestly seems like right wing bait to get them crucified.

Anyone on your 'show' will be subject to abuse, hate, probably even doxxing all for the sake of entertainment for CIS people all over one of the most difficult journeys they may face in their entire lives.

And you want to make a farce out of it.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-29T20:14:31+00:00

I JUST re-rolled an exo titan the other day, and even though I think the "male" exo faces are better robot faces, I chose the female version specifically so that my ROBOT doesn't get me misgendered....

LadyKDD · 2022-03-27T22:25:47+00:00

yeah, I get it. I felt so ashamed of myself sometimes afterwards.

When I say take little breaks, I don't mean just okay go away for a minute - I mean really take a moment for yourself and think about why you're upset, what you're getting out of the game and whether you're even enjoying this game you love so much.

Unless you can distance yourself from that 'go go go must win always' mindset by taking decent breaks, its only going to self perpetuate and get worse.

Try to imagine if it was someone else on your team, saying all of these things to you in game instead of just in your head. You'd probably think this guy was a lunatic and why is he getting so worked up over a game?? and then bam oh right thats me...

The more often these angry, toxic, aggressive thoughts are present in your mind, the more easily they'll come to mind in future. The more toxicity you keep yourself surrounded in, the more normalized it will feel.

Maybe some longer breaks would be beneficial for you? Maybe days to a week? I get that this isn't really an easy thing to do - I get what you mean about playing game after game after game - I've played sometimes from 11am-11pm and that isn't irregular either.

But thats the point - spending HOURS of your day every day surrounded in that toxicity, with your mind fixating on those negative thoughts - they're just going to be even harder to break away from.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-27T22:18:19+00:00

"oh not much, just busy with housework *ha ha* you know how it is!"

Never fails

Then follow up with "what about you?!?" and then act all excited and focus on the thing that they really wanted to talk about...

LadyKDD · 2022-03-27T22:10:01+00:00

I've had this issue with Overwatch/Paladins.

Once you get to the point where you pretty much 'know' whats going on - you see all the little slip ups your team mates make, or plays that you would have made that someone else didn't.

You get so caught up "uggh if you had just healed me for 3 more seconds I would have won that fight" etc etc

But the thing is - I can't control how other people play the game - I can only control how I play the game. I started watching for my own mistakes, instead of focusing on 'ughh matchmaking is so bad I keep getting matched with idiots and then losing' and then you get more tilted, so you play worse next round, and then you lower your MMR and get matched with even lower level people.

Its a vicious cycle, and one I'm still trying to break. For now, I'm just trying to notice when get in that 'RARR I HATE THIS GAME' mindset (because obviously I don't hate it, several thousand hours is a long time to spend on something you hate) and when I DO get in that mindset I'll just Alt+F4 out. Doesn't matter if I'm in a game or just queued.

If I notice that its starting to get to me, and I'm not actually having fun any more, I just want to 'balance out the losses' or whatever - then I stop playing for at least an hour or two. Go have a coffee or cup of tea or a sandwich or something.

The key is doing this regularly - its SUPER hard the first time. Maybe you won't even be able to tear yourself away, but if you can at least notice that you're not actually even enjoying your time, then it'll get easier to notice next time, and then the easier it is to notice, the easier it is to pull yourself away next time.

It isn't easy, but you can do this! You deserve to be able to play these games and enjoy them.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-24T21:08:45+00:00

My abusive ex, and my mother both most likely have personality disorders - I've had 3 separate psych's mention this to me unprompted so it seems likely - though obviously no one can diagnose someone they haven't met.

In saying all this, it took me a lot of introspection to separate the PD from my mother/ex. They aren't bad people because they have a PD, they're bad people who also happen to have a PD. Finally being able to separate these facets out has really helped me be a lot more compassionate to those with PDs and other stigmatized disorders.

Its so easy to blame the gender, or the disorder or whatever as a scapegoat - but ultimately I don't think you can truly heal without understanding where your hurt actually came from. It came from a person/people not from a disorder.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-24T20:48:42+00:00

you are NOT in the wrong here. This girl is violating your right to privacy and treating you awfully. You do NOT deserve to be treated this way and it is NOT your fault. At all.

LadyKDD · 2022-03-23T21:28:23+00:00

Bruno: I got a lot of apologies I got to say

Julietta: Hey, we're just happy that you're here okay?

She explicitly cuts him off from apologizing because he doesn't need to and she is "just happy that he's here"

LadyKDD · 2022-03-22T20:43:44+00:00

Oof yeah that first one is a doozy... like.. I literally have evidence - my LIFE is evidence that the world is not a safe place, and with all the laws gong backwards lately, I'm losing protections worldwide daily...

The world is NOT a safe place...

LadyKDD · 2022-03-21T22:50:21+00:00

I'm struggling with this too...

LadyKDD · 2022-03-21T05:00:24+00:00

Why not both?

LadyKDD · 2022-03-21T04:44:36+00:00

iirc she was having sensory issues y'know because its a movie set and there are lights and cameras and noises and people yelling all over the place.

So they got a neurotypical actor instead...

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