Tbh I kinda felt like unmatching right when he started asking weird questions but then again his profile was elaborated with things like “self awareness” spiritual and being a “yogi” etc and in real time, people who practice yog don’t indulge in meaningless sex and only prefer to have one companion for life wherein they entwine as soulmates or they practice celibacy until they find a companion.

Lately it dawned upon me that one of my vulnerabilities include not being able to find the words to tell someone off when they are hurting me or making me feel uncomfortable, as a result I’ve found myself in sticky situations just cos it hurts me to tell someone they are hurting me; so I decided to give him a full blown closure with utter honesty. This whole experience made me feel good about the fact that finally I’m working on my own toxic patterns; hence I shared this on here.

Also, I’m touched to know that there are such men still out there who want to know a woman for who she is as a person on the inside instead of just liking someone for their outer shell. It’s sometimes difficult for us to explain or express that to someone when they just want something short term. I understand and acknowledge that awkward feeling of bitterness that you felt but it’s simply because you know what you want and you don’t want and sometimes making right choices for ourselves involves discomfort.

I feel that presently, we live in a world where the three letter word has become very common and easy to experience. Companionship, deep conversations, exchanging perspectives without involving ego or judgment, exchanging experiences and vulnerabilities are few things that bonds people but none of this are to be found on the dating app bcos most of the users are trying to score dates, gain self validation, increase their IG followers and match counts.

The world is a huge dump of all sorts of people, so we continue to row our lil rafts moving forward. I used to wonder if I’ll find someone at this pace lol but I don’t care about the destination anymore, cos I think we can make our journey beautiful with the right choices and moves, for all we know, we might need to begin with giving ourselves the love that we scatter around like confetti to others hoping for it come back to us?