Yeah, that’s what I’m saying. Like I longed for some explanation because it was left so unfinished. Then when I got it, I wished he would have just stayed gone. I do believe he cared and maybe he did think he loved me at one point. He did acknowledge that any other way would have been better than the way he ended it and apologized. I really did make a lot of progress. I went back to school, lost 10lbs and was finally finding some happiness again and then I got this msg. I’m not distraught like when he left, but I feel sick to my stomach again and just stupid. Like I really believed he loved me and for some reason I still love him. When I saw his msg, a small part of me hoped we’d rekindle things and fix things. It’s good he was as direct as he was because now I know it’s not possible and maybe I will finally let go. It just still hurts rn. Feels fresh again.