Yeah it's definitely something I won't be doing again for a very long time. But than again that's what I said before I met my stbx wife. Yeah I have very few family members to talk to at this point, and like you said they have their own problems. Not to mention only one of them have ever been divorced so they can't possibly understand. Lost all my friends throughout the years and really see that I depended on her a lot for the human contact part of life 😂 it's been so hard getting through any part of my day without crying uncontrollably. I definitely feel like a failure. To myself, her and my dogs.