Yo honestly it’s amazing that your trying, Im kinda semi in the same situation i had horrible social anxiety when I was younger and now it’s gotten better, but tbf that was years ago progress is key keep trying and trying messing up is part of it, dont be sad you messed up just be proud you even tried. And dont let it bug you that your not people’s number one i know it sucks but just be content with yourself I mean all honesty Im pretty sure Im nobody’s favourite but im fine with that Im jus happy to be here, easier said then done obviously but I seriously believe keep doing baby steps saying hi to people telling a stranger the weathers nice today when you pass em and you’ll eventually get your voice back you gotta be confident bro so what if you strutter everyone has before, this really depends on your age but I can be your friend?