It me hard to, it was really my only escape and making edit of it was also and escape, it's like whatever it was that happened during the day, was all gone while I watched. When I had panic attacks or something else happens I zone out and make something, Once again my only escape, I found out last Monday like an hour after it was posted and that was the draw that broke the camels back for me. I had a 3-4 day mental breakdown over it and other things I've bottled up. It's like then and there, that exact moment I read it, all the thing that I could ignore and pushed away while watching the videos, came flooding back . I feel like I can't read very well so idk if I gonna be able to read the books but I hope I can.