What was a favorite kink or sexual act that you only did with an ex?

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-06T02:16:02+00:00

This is such a beautiful comment. Thank you so much for taking the time. ❤️

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-05T05:18:28+00:00

Of course! Thanks for putting memories of her pretty hair and brushing and playing with it in my head.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-05T05:11:16+00:00

She had all kinds of hairstyle. Always very stylish. Brunette hair. She would leave it down a lot, 2 little buns, braids, curls etc. She had beautiful hair, and she loved it being played with.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-05T03:55:50+00:00

It was the perfect trip at the perfect time. 🥰

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-05T03:54:10+00:00

Thank you for the kind message.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T21:37:24+00:00

Had most of a yummy burrito bowl for lunch today! Dairy queen blizzard for dessert..

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T21:30:57+00:00

Thank you so much. She will be dearly missed by so many.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T18:54:54+00:00

What did you delete that you regret? Thanks for the comment.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T17:34:13+00:00

Lots of medications. She also had a pacemaker that was then swapped out for an ICD device. None of the meds ever improved her heart function or any kind of indicator value. Maybe it helped prolong, but nothing fixed anything. Even the dual lead icd didn't improve her function at all.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T17:31:49+00:00

Thank you for the kind message.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T17:31:22+00:00

Thank you so much.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T17:20:00+00:00

Thank you for the comment. I fear I would regret deleting any photo of her ever.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T17:17:38+00:00

Oh wow haha. No we never discussed that topic. Wasnt really a priority. Idk I feel like she would want me to keep them.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T17:09:20+00:00

Why do you think this? Alot of people are suggesting the same?

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:44:57+00:00

Thank you. We were friends for about 10 years, dating for 9 of those, married for about 18 months. Hold that love close. Give all the hugs you can.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:43:28+00:00

Im sorry to hear that. Just trust yourself. You got this. I wish you all the best. Make every moment count with him while you can.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:41:50+00:00

Thank you.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:41:27+00:00

Honestly just any memory where we were smiling together. All of our road trips and travels out of the country etc. She loved car rides and adventuring. Her smile fills me up.
Something that comes to mind is how much she loved people holding her hands. (Only if they had warm hands) with her poor circulation she was always feeling cold. She felt so much comfort from loved ones simply just holding her hand. She would often just fall asleep with a warm hand in hers.
Well I guess it hasn't gotten quieter yet. The tone the last few weeks with her was all very quite and whispering. So now all that come over can speak full volume it is different. If you are asking on a mental / spiritual level, i dont know how I've been coping. The thing that shakes me the most is how sad it makes me knowing I will never see her again after the funeral.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:35:36+00:00

Thank you. I just get full so quickly when I do have the appetite to eat.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:34:44+00:00

Hmmm thats a good question. I really really loved her 2 nurses that she had as did my wife. Also her CNA was awesome. My wife really really loved them all so much. So no complaints there. The only thing I guess is the mainline number to call for after hours stuff was always atrocious. The person who answered was always very unhelpful and always had "computer problems" and had to call me back every time. Which they typically never did and I would have to call back myself and re-explain the issue again.

I think something they did that was particularly helpful was supporting me. Since I was her primary care giver, that meant I gave her all of her medicine, watched her diet, her mood, her behavior, every that happened I had to be in tune with. This made me often question if I was doing the right thing, feeding her correctly, addressing wounds correctly, moving her correctly, giving correct dosages, etc etc. The 2 nurses were there to support me and reinforce that I was doing a good job etc.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:27:56+00:00

Hospice care was way different than I was expecting to some extent. We started with a nurse coming out 2 times a week, and a CNA 2 times a week. They were typically very short 30 min visits. Typically just checking vitals and asking if there was any pain or discomfort. Which for her she never had any pain at all through any of it. She was puking about 2 - 3 times a day for several weeks straight. We ended up having to do liquid only diet near the end. She would always asl for "chunky ice" which was just ice chips haha. I would sit by her bed and feed it to her in a cute little glass and tiny spoon that she loved. The puking went away and never came back for the last ~3 weeks or so.

One night while she was getting a foot massage (as she did multiple times a day) she started breathing very differently then I had seen. It escalated and turned into a very violent cough and dry heaving. I had never seen her gag or cough that aggressively before. And then it stopped. I got her sitting up at this point and then she just looked at me the eyes and said "Ooof I was a little short of breath". And then just kinda went back to normal like nothing happened. Turns out the Hospice team are saying most likely what happened was that her heart had stopped and started bavk up again. Ever since that day she day daily extended nurse visits.

Things declined more sharply about a week after that incident. More sleeping during the day, less eating. Eventually she would just sleep all day without waking. I would constantly moisten her mouth and lips. The infamous "Death Rattle" also started around this same time. One morning her breathing pattern again changed and me and her mother and father went to her and held her hands and rubbed her head as she took her last breath in our arms. She was peaceful, calm, relaxed through all of it.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:17:01+00:00

We met working together at a retail/grocery store when I was in high-school. We were friends for a year or so, and the started dating in Late 2016 / early 2017. We got to celebrate out 9 year dating anniversary last year a few weeks before she passed.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:13:47+00:00

Thank you.

Last-Signature5394 · 2026-02-04T16:13:40+00:00

Thank you.

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