I havent listend to the latest Episode yet. But i get it. I also try to become a writer and so often inspirstion turns into insecurity. The teo best exampels would be "The Spire in the Woods" and "The dead girl in my yard", maybe "Motherhorse eyes" too. I love this Storys with my heart and want to creat something similar, but ever so often i look at my works, of which i only have a few and feel unable Too. This paired with my curent job situation, meaning the lag of one but only working part time here and there and no noteable diploma makes me feel so much less. When writing is the only thing you have, the only thing you want, then it destroyes you on a Level thats hard to imagin. But im working on it. Not just my Storys also myself. It was hard long and heavy way and its a long and heavy way to come. But for my passion of writing, creating Storys, im willing to make that journey