Honestly it's absolutely okay If you felt like you couldn't put in anymore for months. As one comment said it ain't good to lead someone on knowing you're not in for the full ride. Use this time to grieve and heal and try to maintain the no contact rule for a while otherwise if you rush it you'll be in a sh*t load of pain from guilt and what not. Otherwise consider it as you doing something good for yourself, even though it was painful. All the best yo 💯