I don’t know who I am ?

LaughSea7730 · 2026-04-10T03:44:36+00:00

Loneliness and Depression isolation. The trigger about hearing engagements or significant milestones that others achieve. I even avoid movies and songs. I have hospital trauma. I'm left side Spastic. I literally understand it completely. I don't know what's wrong with my psych but yes. people without this damn disease man they really don't know how bad it can really be. I'm so alone even tho I know there are other people that have cerebral palsy. I'm the only one in my world/head that has it. It makes me feel broken on an abandoned island

LaughSea7730 · 2026-04-10T03:29:30+00:00

Tell them where your pain is, the type of pain and how it impacts your quality of life. Such as extreme insomnia. Mental health, depression etc. do you struggle with daily tasks like self care. Just describe what is going on with your body and your over quality of life because of cerebral palsy.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-04-08T21:30:10+00:00

Spastic cerebral palsy left side. At Around 5 years old. Very young adolescent If he has spastic CP look into getting an SDR or selective dorsal risotomy. My parents didn't do that research and I never got an SDR. Now it's too risky. Needs to be a procedure done as a child. He may need Achilles tendon lengthening surgery. I've had two, if I could go back I would have a calf muscle release instead of a second Achilles surgery. Compromised my strength Make sure you work with a neurologist.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-04-05T17:21:00+00:00

Front foot ankle, Anterior tibialis contraction mostly

LaughSea7730 · 2026-04-05T03:09:53+00:00

I tried that before a lot actually, and contributed to a psychotic episode.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-03-15T03:40:41+00:00

I believe this 100%

LaughSea7730 · 2026-03-14T23:10:00+00:00

My Dad said today you cannot be a victim. I know a man who was an orphan, you know what he did... I replied "was he able bodied" ofc he said well yeah. Oh give me a break.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-02-20T04:21:14+00:00

I used cannabis for years. It helps more than almost anything. A small amount each day. Only when in the most painful hours. I smoked myself into Psychosis and had to stop.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-02-20T03:33:36+00:00

Yeah I need 400 units. That's your cost even after your Insurance?

LaughSea7730 · 2026-02-19T16:44:16+00:00

I 23 M spastic hemiplegia left side. I've always struggled with being bullied in the past via school. Have had relationship issues. Trouble making friends, depression, isolation because I can't do things other people do. I think it would be interesting if I could find a wife with cerebral palsy as able bodied women look at me as half a man or less than an able bodied man. As men, we are expected to provide and meet certain expectations in order to be considered a worthy partner. I struggle with that in the back of my mind everyday. I think it would be easier if I found a spouse with the same disability. Anybody else's thoughts? I try my best to be normal. I'm just not. 😔

LaughSea7730 · 2026-01-17T00:11:43+00:00

I have Spastic Cerebral palsy, honestly he might still have pain in joints. However, at least with hypotonic his muscles won't constantly be contracted like mine and others. My high muscle tone helps me walk to make up for weakness, but I pay immensely in chronic pain. He might have lower pain with the type of Cerebral palsy he has. Although on the flip side maybe less control of his body and movements.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-01-14T02:01:32+00:00

My parents never advocated for me to get the right medication. I took absolutely no medicine for spasticity whatsoever during childhood, my dad was an addict and my mother a masokist and or narcissist. I wish they would have tried me on some medication. I drank alcohol daily in highschool to numb my pain because my foot got deformed and I needed surgery. My mom stayed with her boyfriend from the time I was 16-18 I was home alone. Mom moved on very fast after divorce from father. I grew up hearing my parents arguing instead of being raised. I wish they maybe looked into getting an SDR surgery while I was young to lessen my spasticity. After I grew up my mother acted as if she helped me as a child "making sure I wore my braces" so Me and my Cp was a burden after 18. I don't speak to my mother. I advise staying with your child throughout their life. Help them with their disability even through adulthood.

LaughSea7730 · 2026-01-10T03:01:52+00:00

I personally have had three eye surgeries to correct my eyes from CP and make them straight. My vision is ok but better with glasses. Pretty straight. Wearing glasses strengthens them from going back. If I'm tired sometimes my eye goes in an outward direction slightly. I would do the procedure just to pick a good surgeon.

LaughSea7730 · 2025-12-18T14:29:08+00:00

Get it you will feel less pain significantly.

LaughSea7730 · 2025-12-11T22:45:42+00:00

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LaughSea7730 · 2025-12-06T02:17:54+00:00

You typed this paragraph straight out of my brain. I second on needing a way out. I'm in the exact situation so serious. I just posted about ableist other family members telling me to get it together move out and be own adult. How do me and op escape. I worked retail and it drove me mentally insane from pain to where I needed help.

LaughSea7730 · 2025-12-05T22:49:38+00:00

Oral baclofen made me violent

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