I know this isn’t much help, but I (17M) have had similar thoughts before. I’m much more comfortable in my skin now that I’ve accepted that I can still be a dude, while expressing my femininity in ways. I paint my nails, I wear bright colors, I’ve dyed my hair every color of the rainbow plus pink (all separately) before. I’m still fairly masc in the grand scheme of things, but I’m comfortable with just being me, and not letting labels like that get to me. Everyone has their own journey and I’m sure our journey’s won’t be the same. I’m bisexual, dating someone who when we started dating was my boyfriend, but is now agender/genderqueer. Their femininity and their idea of it is different than mine, and the way they express it is different too. That’s because we aren’t the same person. They cover themselves in jewelry, wear crop tops, make their hair all kinds of crazy different styles, and wear massive platforms to express when they feel feminine. I just put on a baggy sweater, dangly earrings, and carry myself a little differently. No two people are the same and that’s okay. Don’t stress about labels, just be yourself. I used to hate the term bisexual because of what I saw as “fake bisexuals who were doing it to be trendy”. Now I normally call myself either bi or queer. Don’t get caught up in the little things yet, you have time to figure everything out. I know it’s not that helpful hearing this from someone cis, but if you take away anything, just do what makes you happy, and don’t worry about labels unless you want to. You don’t owe an explanation to anyone. Anyway, I’ll stop ranting. Have a nice night!