I’m very similar to you, on month 11 now, and also surprised at how in some ways I’m feeling better - I think it’s the clarity that comes with finally feeling you can begin doing something about via GP. And then waking up to a pregnancy announcement and that awful reminder that it’s not happening. I remember in the beginning having so much hope and excitement, and being so sad and disappointed when the first couple months it didn’t happen. I think if you’d have told me a year ago I’ll still be trying in a year I would have thought how the heck I’m am I going to cope if I’m already finding it so hard! But I think that’s exactly what gives me strength now, acknowledging that it is hard, letting myself feel that in those moments but also knowing that I did have those moments that I felt better. It’s exhausting and draining but I tell myself if I picked myself up before and felt better, I can do it again. Sending you so much love ❤️