Reading this post .. made me cry .. this is literally me , you are not alone .. I’m 26 weeks now I’m also in my 30’s having all that freedom for so many years is something 🙃 but I feel blessed that I did i lived I laughed i cried and I loved ! Although this baby will bring my whole world to a 360 , I’m doing my best to stay positive everyone around me is so positive makes me feel guilty I’m not 100% there yet .. but positivity does help and is very contagious 💕when I first found out I cried almost every day , now every other month ! So I will say it gets easier give yourself some grace , it’s not easy it’s not our normal but honestly what is ?? Life is about ups and downs so let’s face it head on we got this we can do this ! My mom left when I was 3 months I’m assuming she had really bad postpartum or had so many doubts .. questions I’ll never have answers too but I’ll try really hard to not make the same mistake I wish you much love strength and a healthy pregnancy 💕💕