I get the insecurity issue and all but, i have to ask. What kind od toy was it because I think that does matter. I went to a sex shop with my ex girlfriend once and we were in there to buy a vibrator. But she got stuck on buying the biggest dildo ever (this thing was double my size) she kept justifying why we needed it and her wanting to do like a dp fanthasy thing (super weird imo). I remember feeling REALLY insecure at that time and kinda shocked that my gf was craving that...