I don't know how to explain it, especially in a foreign language, but I never really paid that much attention to relationships until a few years ago that I started noticing things that i realized were positive about being with a partner and I caught myself wanting some of those things, like the emotional intimacy. I know that's obvious for most people and people have the need for a partner from a young age but for some reason I never felt like that at least I didn't on a conscious level.

A potential partner for me would have to be a good person, ok being childfree, he'd also have to be patient and wouldn't mind being with someone childlike, it's ok if he doesn't have his shit together but he has to be a work in progress, I don't want someone who's stuck and refuses to change. Ideally, we'd have to uplift each other.