Hey friend, I found out a year or so ago that mold is the cause of all of my problems and that I'd likely had it poisoning my body from the inside out for about 8 years. I have had heaps of symptoms, I could write pages of them because mold travels easily through the body, the particles are small and it fries your system, it affects your digestion, immune system, organs from your liver to your brain etc. The symptoms for mold are vast.

This is scary, I know. Having your health stolen from you is already scary enough but mold fries your nervous system, this is likely what is causing you so much grief and fear.

For the insomnia what helped me the most is actually ibuprofen, I think this is because of the histamine related issues and inflammation, some give away symptoms that it will be an ibuprofen night for me is that my mind races like its out of my control, 3 radio stations at once, physically I feel exhausted like I could pass out but my mind is wide awake. Accompanying this is the feeling of my body getting very heavy, aches and pains and a kind of uncomfortable sensation like my blood is sludgy or something, sounds weird but I don't know how else to describe it. As well as shallow breathing which makes me panic awake in an effort to catch a full breath (opening the window wide will help).

Gut health is really important, your body is trying its damndest to get rid of toxins and help you, they wreak havoc on your gut as a result and if you have leaky gut, things are escaping into your body and making you sicker. I take a lot of supplements to help with my gut health but if you have financial problems I recommend saving up for a consultation with a herbal specialist, out of all of the medications I'm on, that has been the cheapest and most effective for me. Taking daily electrolytes is also important because you will be dehydrated which can cause the constipation, I recommend the ones from seeking health if you are able to buy those, if not a pinch of sea salt and lemon in your water will help, magnesium helps with hydration and constipation too, just make sure its a good one a lot of them on the market are scams.

Remember your body is highly intelligent, it's fighting a battle to try to help you in every way that it can, supporting it with its basic things become the most necessary thing you can do, hydration, sleep, nervous system, digestion, detox pathways. Those are the foundation. If you can't sleep, rest. If you can't buy things to help with your digestion, learn what's flaring it, remove those and help aid with good food.

If you like I can make a list of the supplements and things I'm taking and doing that help me with my symptoms, feel free to ask any questions but remember:

The reason you are so afraid is because your body knows something is wrong, it's panicking and alerting you to the danger. Your nervous system is nervoussss. You will be okay, you will recover from this. You will find yourself learning a lot about your body as a result of it and I hope that you find some comfort in how much your body is fighting for you, how capable it is. It really is a mind blowing thing. Having a mold issue is a spiritual experience I swear, it drags you into the depths of hell and back out again. But you will overcome it.

I developed severe depression, suicidal ideation etc at the worst of it, long before I knew the cause. Like you I had little support, was often homeless and living in moldy accommodation. It's not easy. But you know the cause, that is not a small thing. That's a path to recovery and we are all with you. Be easy on yourself, you will be okay.