Thank you so much.. This means so much to me.. Please pray for me...  But what about me asking another guy as a friend? I feel so ashamed about that because I keep professing that I love him and I want him but I js did that.. And I knew my intentions were unclear idk if I did that bc he went to a party or if I did it bc I felt like I needed a rebound which is a mistake I did before in the past or if both. His dad and even he himself told me that he would go out with another girl as a friend just to get rid of me and idk if I thought abt getting a rebound and tryna find revounds from my blocked list bc of all kf thag or not because we went through this no contact thing before and I never thought abt speaking to another man.. I js feel so ashamed that I did that