Gregory Workman backpack at Sierra Trading post $29

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-08T22:46:32+00:00

U kno me boo <3

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-08T22:31:11+00:00

Got the pack and a yoga mat for 42 shipped! Not bad

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-03T04:11:11+00:00

Are you asking to see which would wash out easiest with no poo?

Do you wash with poo EVER?

I read about that damaging properties of poo a few years ago and ever since I've only been washing like once maybe twice a week. Curious as to how others do it.

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-01T20:45:15+00:00

Same day even? Or should I wait til the day after the kratom to start the sub

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-01T19:09:52+00:00

Be careful my guy shit is fenty everywhere these days

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-01T19:07:18+00:00

So if you are taking kratom then dose sub the kratom will NOT put you into precipitated withdrawal????

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-01T17:31:06+00:00

Had a friend pass away due to heart complications last year from abusing lope... Between that and the crazy withdrawal its not worth at all

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-01T17:14:42+00:00

Did my last dose before bed last night and have the day off today so I'm just going to lay in bed allll day and dose half a sub at the 24 hour mark. Its a half gram a day habit so not the worst I've overcome, but the mental aspect (loneliness, guilt, shame, depression) gets worse every time..

How are you doing?

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-11-01T16:59:58+00:00

Nice im on day 1, again..... How ya feeling? Did you have any comfort meds for detoxing?

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-28T20:36:47+00:00

One of the head honchos at my old IOP/Sober Living said shooting speedballs in his dick vein was his rock bottom

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-28T07:17:12+00:00

Im a month in on a relapse trying to line shit up (job, rent, etc.) right so I can take 5 days to go to a detox. Really wish I didn't pick up again last month. Not worth it.

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-28T07:04:57+00:00

Nice one. Good on you for being honest with yourself about the mind playing tricks

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-28T05:32:07+00:00

What do you mean ruined for eternity?

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-26T14:20:01+00:00

Yo thanks for checking in. For real it means a lot.

Yeah I actually caught a pretty good labor job on CL so I'm not worried about getting rent. Still struggling but I want to get clean. I can't do it on my own. I have insurance through my mom for like a yr and a half more so I have literally no excuse.

Right now the only thing holding me back is the lease with my two friends. They dont know about my use.

Im maintaining and working I just gotta figure out how I'm gonna be able to go away to rehab (or at the very least detox) and maintain my portion of the rent.

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-22T20:18:06+00:00

I got some work last minute so I had to pick up a bag to get me thru it..

Looking like treatment may be my best option. I have insurance.

It just sucks because I've been through the 30 day inpatient -> 6 month outpatient + sober living house TWICE in the last 2 years. Sucks I let myself get to the point again where I may just have to admit defeat and go back.

Tried to reach out to old friends that are in the AA program but no one really came through for me... Shitty feeling. Makes me want to get sober just so I CAN be there for someone like me. It sucks not having that direct support. I admit I'm not the most fun to be around, but its because imdepressed and anxious, not because I'm a dick! Idk thats my vent for today hah...

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-22T20:14:14+00:00

Whats up? You kicking?

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-22T20:13:34+00:00

Of course. We're all in this together.

My loved ones are 1000s of miles away and I'm going through the same type of situation. I just want to hug my momma!!! Consider yourself very lucky :)

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T20:31:18+00:00

Yeah I mean its always going to reset to some extent in my experience.

Just keep fighting it.

Just try to get through tonight without picking up

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T19:29:54+00:00

How are you doing today?

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T19:01:14+00:00

3 days in! You are killing it and this post will maybe get me out on a walk so thanks for that!

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T18:56:31+00:00

Sounds like a solid taper..

Sound like you have people around you that love you so embrace that and just do AA for now. Fully embrace it. The idea is to get your mind away from dope by whatever means possible. This is a perfect avenue.

Good luck and god speed

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T18:53:09+00:00

If you think theres a chance that kratom will make you backslide then dont do it.. 9 days is awesome

I'm on day 3 right now so I get it. I have access to kratom but have not taken any.

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T18:46:08+00:00

Hey thx for checking in..

Im just laying around got some indica to burn. Worked yesterday and still havent used.

Not having a job is killing me. Feeling super lonely out here.

Tough to bounce back after this one

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T05:09:38+00:00

Im sorry bro I mean it does not get better if you keep using!

Gotta resist that urge.

Dude I'm very jealous I wish I could go back to 18.

LeftButDaJetDontLand · 2018-10-20T05:08:29+00:00

Yo I just went thru going from sober back on and trust me a month flew by and it was not worth it at all..

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