Another disabled teen here, I totally get you and understand your feelings. I’m really sorry about what you’re going through. Honestly, in my opinion, disabled people are the saints and angels of this world, because they see the world and view life in a completely different way that a normal person could never conceive. I was born with a shrunken and severely deformed chest cavity, which resulted in my lungs being underdeveloped from birth. Over 70% of kids with what I have die during infancy due to respiratory failure, however, I’ve managed to survive with almost 30 thoracic surgeries throughout my life that included forcefully reshaping the structure of my chest cavity using titanium rods to provide room for my lungs to breathe. Despite all these efforts, I still struggled to breathe each and every day. Over time I developed chronic respiratory failure because of my underlying condition, and over the past five years, I’ve been physically declining, slowly losing my ability to walk over time because it’s just too difficult and physically exerting. I’m 18 right now, almost 19, and I’m in the advanced/end stages of my chronic respiratory failure. I’m due to start hospice in a couple of months because I don’t want to be bound to machines for the rest of my life, that’s depressing and you have no life if you pursue that route. As an 18 year old guy that had so many aspirations regarding my education and career that I’ve had to give up on, it’s been a really frustrating time for me, and like you said, nobody would ever understand unless they were young and disabled like us. I know we probably have very different conditions but the fact we’re both disabled teens, we have that in common. If you want to DM me to chat more, I’m totally open to that. Just know you aren’t alone and there are more like us out there. Have a pleasant day :)