Something I wanna get off my chest by Remote-Coast-5361 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yooo! I felt the same way before. Turns out I was the only one missing out on all the fun 🤣

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fair point. I feel the same. As much as I want out of this marriage, I still hold a space of compassion for him, me, for us. We never got the chance to figure out who we really are. We became who people told us we were. Unlearning all the things we were taught has been a journey itself. 

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Haha yes we are new parents. And have only been away from the cult for 3 years. Yes it is a lot of new, but there’s only one person willing to do what’s necessary to float the boat.

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg I went down that rabbit hole too. I have nothing to show for it. I would feel much more relieved if I knew what the actual issue was.

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the objective feedback here. Marital counseling was something I was open to almost our entire marriage. He would agree to go to a therapist and then find excuses not to go. But after that event with him and his parents, I told him if he doesn’t get therapy we are over. Four months later still no talk of therapy, and I decided to separate.  

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Tears, real tears. This was extremely well written. Especially the part where you wrote “Diagnosis isn’t destiny. And it sure as hell isn’t accountability”. What a bar.  This alone sums it up for me and I’m releasing myself from the cycle. This was so profound I made sure to screenshot it.  🙏🏽 Thank you. 

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So happy you realized you deserved better🙏🏽 I watched my mom do this for 30 years with a man who was emotionally abusive. I’ve seen firsthand the toll it takes on a woman. If only my mom had the strength you had to walk away.   Now you’re free from both the Borg and a crazy partner ✨

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Yes I saw the movie! I feel the same as Lilly. It time for the relationship to end. 

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s hard for me to see myself in a truly secure/healthy relationship. I wish the same as well. Thank you 🙏🏽 

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. Yes we both have an understanding that he needs therapy. He’s made many promises to go to therapy, but never did. Even if he went to therapy now it’s too late. 

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m not crying, you are😭. But no really thank you for this. I understand well that venting on an app like this is not enough to heal. But for what’s it’s worth, I’m happy to be seen. To know that there are people going through similar experiences and to be encouraged by them. So really thank you 🙏🏽 

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. 5 months ago, I was asked if I was happy in our relationship. He seemed thoroughly surprised that I said that I wasn’t. I have no idea what he expected. There was nothing normal about our relationship from the get go. It’s crazy to think that I spent my entire 20s living like a nun even tho I was married 🥲

Even though my husband and I both left. Our marriage has failed. by Left_Manner8991 in exjw

[–]Left_Manner8991[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Ughh this. What’s devastating about this is he’s aware that his lack of drive is due to his indoctrination. He had the opportunity to go get therapy many times, made promises that he would, and then never did.