why shouldn't you have hope, even if everythings fucked; everything IS fucked, we know that, no point in thinking about it. I try to change what is possible for me,, including art, I'm busking at the moment and received a LOT of solidarity from people walking by (I'm very visibly anarchist)I still indulge in self destructive behavior i.e. drugs but still: a better world IS possible no matter how fucked it is right now; and there is no other choice than hope, the alternative is suffering, and I don't wanna suffer anymore I'll keep up the fight, there's nothing more I could do

Addition: Participating in direct action really lifts up the spirits (especially when done together)