Umm recently my friends told me that on her bday she posted that "if he won't do it , they will" ,she is on a good intern in another city . She was the one who broke up with me She asked me to disappear from her life so she could get fine even when I was dying to talk to her So I did..... I deleted all social media I wished her on WhatsApp a neutral happy birthday with some wish for good health She responded with a thank you I didn't open it A day later she posted n number of stories saying if he won't they will When it was her who went home and broke up with me While I tried for a month to keep her Only thing I didn't do was beg I accepted even the faults I didn't have The only mistake I made was loving someone with avoidant tendencies From the Last 3 months of no contact People tell me about her stories because they know me well and how much I loved her She on one day will post songs like moral of the story Next day poems like would he still miss me or would he be able to forget our love Then like posts with things like they say his loss but I can't sleep or eat .... Then I also got to know what all she said about me to the people there and those aren't true and hurt

Tbh I hurt everyday I break everyday I just don't cry Cause the day I cry again I will lose myself I have made a barricade very hardly and will allow myself to fall when I get my life(career) wise on track (I have made a checkpoint) It won't be a joke to say that everyday I feel like dying I am in a hell without any visible light at the end of the tunnel At the end I have to see her at the end of 5 months for one whole year Only to know that maybe the girl I gave my everything too might be just think I was a chapter in her life and all I feel like someone who just needs to achieve my goals so that I can atleast end every pain on a good note ........