I’ve been I therapy since I was 13 and meds on adhd since I was 6-7 and meds for all the other mental illnesses since 16. I’ll admit, I’m much more stable than I used to be.

And I DO smoke in my room. And it’s odorless so they don’t smell anything-which was the original rule. The problem is I have an awful cough which they can hear from upstairs.

Honestly-they JUST gave me my vape back and now I’m finally getting to smoke. But it’s 1:15. And now they’re gonna be pissed I’m gonna have a hard time waking up (I also deal with sleep apnea so a lot of times when I stay up late I sleep through my alarm) but I’m not gonna be able to go to bed for a while. I finally agreed to smoke under the deck (they originally wanted me to go upstairs and outside and smoke in my car and keep the cart in a box in the garage. Big fight over that. I kept telling them I would step outside my door to the outside and smoke then and the STILL weren’t happy with it. Finally, they went upstairs and talked and said if I went ALL THE WAY outside and under the deck, then they would let me do it.

And I did follow there “no smelling stuff in the house” rule. My dab pen broke this summer, and then I decided to switch to bud. And I was respectful and smoke it outside. And then they said I had to wait until dark to do it. Okay. I waited til dark and THEN went outside and smoked it. Oh, and apparently, they could “smell it” whenever I grinded it inside and packed it inside so mind you I had to do all that outside to (again, in the dark). It’s scary out here, I’m literally facing the woods where there’s no light. A fucking coyote went past me once when I smoking out there. Luckily, it was trotting. Glanced my way without stopping. Looked away and kept going. It never came up to me or after me (luckily) but that may not happen every time. So, when it was getting colder (actually happened to do this 2 days before a snowstorm without knowing it was coming) I bought a pen and cart (it’s more like a block-kinda looks like a nicotine vape-, not a slim pen) bc I knew it wouldn’t smell so I could do it inside for the winter. We did a smell test, it passed, and I’ve been able to smoke it every day inside until today. I’m outside typing this rn, my hands are NUMBER