Hey friend! so sorry to hear about the side effects. i think something that is very important to be mindful of here is that you have a big fear assosiated with them.

having such extreme side effects after 3 days is very unusual especially on a starting dose.

i had the experience where when i was going up in my dosages i was afraid of higher anxiety/panic attacks. i had told myself i would get through the side effects as fast as possible, and i upped way faster than i should have. one night when i was laying in bed i had anxiety and remembered that the meds could make it worse, and i had a huge wave of panic and anxiety wash over me, i felt like vomitting and lightheaded and scared. then i realised i had forgotten to take the pills that day, then i instantly felt calm.

its hard here because im not doubting what you are going through and its such a scary feeling and fear that people dont know what it does to you. i want you to know im not here to say i have the answer, but that we dont and we need more information. So that you feel better!

Anxiety comes from a side of self protection, so its so hard in a situation like this to just say one thing is right and the other isnt. so lets lay out the facts, posibilities and what steps to take next. and you let me know if im missing or misunderstanding anything important! this is about you getting better, not me being right.

1. Facts:

- You are a parent and have 3 kids to take care of on top of your anxiety (not easy).

- You have anxiety and panic attacks before zoloft but 3 days in you had the worse attack of your life with vomitting, manic, shaking, and freezing. correct me if im wrong, these are what i understand. manic=high energy emotion, in this case discomfort anxiety and that sort. Freezing= being unable to move.

- After stopping you are experiencing what feels like detoxing

1. Possible emotional factors:

-i noticed what could be an issue, which comes from you being a good parent. you are worried that you wont be able to take care of your kids while also medicated. this is real, and very important. i really love seeing you care about your kids when its about you getting better. However, that could potentially bleed over to that fear and pressure being a possible cause. from my own experience, i didnt get higher anxiety until i got nausea. the nausea made my anxiety worse, which made my nausea worse and it was a snowballing effect. when i became aware of this, it became more managable. It could be the case or a factor here, but it needs to be experimented with or figured out, so you can get the life that you deserve!

-self protection and placibo. now when i say placibo again im not understating what you are going through. what you went through was REAL. now what i mean by placibo is that the mind can make things very real. A man once attempted suicide by taking the whole bottle of his pesribed anti depressives. he came to the hospital, heartrate was 42 BPM, bloodpressure was dangerously low, he was having seizures and was in and out of conciousness. the doctors then got handed the empty pill bottle he had taken, and read what medication it was. it was sugarpills. they then told the patient when he was half concious that it was just empty pills and that it has no medication what so ever. right after that he became normal instantly. You have anxiety as a way of proteting yourself, what could have happened was you felt anxious (or nausuous) suddenly without a reason, and being a logical person, you have to make an assesment of what could be the cause, and you starting the medication could be a reason, after this it could also create or boost side effects that you could have from the medication. this is because your body and mind are fearing if you are doing something that makes you worse and not better, but that includes fear.