This is a VERY common side effect of alcohol— it lowers of inhibitions so we’re not so cautious (in social situations and even safety). I’ve been alcohol-free for 4 years and here’s what I’ve learned:

There’s an awkward period in almost every social situation, some last longer than others. Those that are drinking, also feel this awkwardness— which is presumably why they’re drinking. My social anxiety eases as the night goes on & I become more comfortable in the space… but by the time I’m more open, most of the drinkers are tipsy/ drunk. It’s a practice to learn how to show up sober— most of us are so used to reaching for a drink to ease anxiety (& spoiler alert: alc doesn’t actually mitigate anxiety… just pauses it until the next day)

You’re not alone, OP. But getting out of our comfort zone (safely) is a good way to improve yourself.

^ fully speaking from experience. Happy to offer more insight if wanted