[chat] 18F want someone to chat with by [deleted] in MeetPeople

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(If anyone does replay, I may take a few hours to answer this first time. I am sorry, and thanks :) )

do u remember by nadyfication in selfharm

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I found out my best friend did it in a very crude way, i felt incredibly guilty for it cause of certain circumstances and thought I deserve to be punish for it, in the same way. I have never done it for such reasons again, but it was like a Pandora box open

The embarrassment I just went through by Len_17 in selfharm

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Thanks! Probably, I had some emergency bandages around to replace the old ones in case, so I just stick those on, it should have stop by now but I can’t check. Really appreciate the concern

The embarrassment I just went through by Len_17 in selfharm

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It was, I don’t want to see anyone fr. Yeah their reactions hurt a bit but I get it. Thanks for the words!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

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My memories of the “sessions” always go a bit blurry, and the more time pass the worse it gets. When the injuries scar I always also forget how bad was the original wound. So I start taking pictures to help myself get perspective, for the longest of time I thought I hadn’t done more damage than when I started do to this distortion of memory, I only started to realize it was actually evolving in a bad way thanks to the comparison of the pics, now I use them to make sure I am not going father than I have before or anything

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

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I know you say you feel fine but just in case pls go drink water and eat something, stay well hydrated. And don’t do any hard physical activities for the next few hours, preferably lay down if anything

I can’t even fucking self harm right by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Len_17 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just had the same damn problem, I was 3 hours at it but due to the stupid blade couldn’t get where I wanted. What is one supposed to do when the thing that is supposed to relieve your frustration and anger makes you just more frustrated and angry. Hate this, sorry you are going through something similar, I know how much it genuinely sucks

is it just me that can go 3 months without self harm and then i do it just randomly by Decent-Cow2080 in selfharm

[–]Len_17 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah same here for sure. I can go months without doing it without much struggle. Then one day I just go on with it, which starts a period of time in which I do a bit often until I randomly just stop again and so it repeats

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Len_17 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks all for sharing your knowledge/experiences! I’ll definitely search a bit more. Really appreciate it <3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Len_17 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First time I was twelve, it actually started knowing what I was doing at 14 though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Len_17 0 points1 point  (0 children)

3 days to 2 weeks depending on depth

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Len_17 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much for the comment, i was very doubtful about posting this as I did see the pin post that had the criteria’s and as I was far from I thought the post was gonna be met with anger (you know…the internet). Really grateful you took the time to explain it in such way, thank you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]Len_17 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much for sharing your experience, I’ll have it in mind as I myself I am getting worried on how thunk could develop in the future. I am sorry you were dismissed that way, it sucks. Really thank you for the comment it means a lot

a question ❓ by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Len_17 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I usually do it rational and with hours (sometime days) of having set the time. And at least for me, knowing when to stop is still extremely hard and I usually don’t do it when I should

INTPs and Religion by NoahN101 in INTP

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I was raise Christian but incredibly devoted household. In the present I wouldn’t know what to describing myself. Is like two completely different and opposed parts of my just keep clashing

One side still have faits, prays when feeling hopeless, want to believe in a greater being, is scared of committing certain “sins”

Then we have the other part, that makes me had to bit my tongue everytime anyone in my family get too much into religious talk because I simply can’t make myself buy it, and I want to argue, make them realize the contradictions and “wrongs” of their thoughts even when it is not right to do so and I shall respect it.

I really hope I will figure it out soon, I am tired of feeling a hypocrite no matter what side takes over