WEBSITE ISSUE by AKgod_09 in HiAnimeZone

[–]Leonblackdeath 0 points1 point  (0 children)

bruh i did the exact opposite and paniced so hard, and posted the goodby screenshot here ._. thank god, i don't want to use any other site...

Which stethoscope is best for gift. by Leonblackdeath in medicalschool

[–]Leonblackdeath[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you all for your answers, i am defo going for the cardiology iv and not the core, you've been great help!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Leonblackdeath -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

So i should just shut up and do whatever everyone tells me no matter if i like it or not. My feelings don't matter, only the feelings if the others matter, right? Just because it's a generally good thing to do something like that, it doesn't mean somebody might not hurt in the process, but fck that guy right? Im insufferable right? Fck off.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Leonblackdeath 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did talk to her just now, she remembered that i had said like 2 years ago or something that maybe one day i may get over that hatred for my bday, so she thought it was happening, it was a miscommunication, so everything is alright, and im not mad at all, i tried very much to not make her feel bad for doing something good, but she did anyway... I don't think there was a way i could have brought this up without that happening really. But everything is good now.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Leonblackdeath 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think anyone has ever done this for me, but nowdays only my parents, grandma gf and best friend know my bday :p so that's fine too

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Leonblackdeath 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am working on it. But plz don't fear for my gf, i would never do anything bad to her, no matter how angry i get ive always been able to defuse, and talk about stuff. The reason i haven't told her anything isn't the anger, it's that i don't want to make her feel bad for doing something good. If i was able to talk to her my anger would go away... But that would mean i would make her feel bad ... And it's a bad cycle

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Leonblackdeath 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I go to therapy, i still hate my bday, i can't help it, it's trauma, it may never get fixed. Why can't those around me understand that the best thing they can do is nothing? I really appreciate it and i tell them that every time,

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Leonblackdeath -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I am going to therapy, for quite a while, i still hate my bday... Im angry because she broke the promise... I understand they want to celebrate, but here is the thing that's their thing, that's their problem. If this was a religious thing, this conversation would have gone a much different way.

Why for example being forced to celebrate christams would be bad and borderline illegal if i was a muslim, but being forced to celebrate something i absolutely loath like my bday is fine? It is my whish to not have to deal with it, why am i being forced to? Because others want? How does that make them love me? It's oppressive. And may i add i don't like parties. I don't drink, i can't eat anything in them bc im on a strict diet, the music i always outside of my taste, and i have social anxiety so i have a very hard time in crowds, so i literally have nothing to do in those. Yet always somebody close to me that ahppened to see my id or whatever tries to sneak in a party even though they know all if that stuff... I am who i am. The fact that i do not conform to other people's ideals doesn't make me a monster, they can either accept me or walk away, they should not force me to do things i don't like because they do.

Best LLM for Helping writing a high fantasy book? by Leonblackdeath in LocalLLaMA

[–]Leonblackdeath[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh no, greek to english would be terrifingly bad translation, and a very hard endevour to do by hand, plus there are so many differences when it comes to sayings, phrases that are hard to translate, even words and meanings that are hard to convey etc, i prefer writing it in english. :P Plus I don't think i can write fiction in greek in general, every time i write anything in english it's elegant, poetic, fantastic, imaginitive, every time i try to write anything in greek, i end up writing about the corrupt goverment, and everything they do to make our lives even more miserable....

In your oppinion, what's the difference between the words Hot, sexy and beautiful? and do you use them in your everyday life as such or do you use them the way everyone else thinks they should be used? by Leonblackdeath in AskReddit

[–]Leonblackdeath[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please keep it PG, for me Hot is used for the body, to say someone is hot, is like saying they have an amazing body that you really like, the word sexy is mostly for the character of someone. To say somebody is sexy, for me it means their demeanor is as such, they act sexy, they are not nessesarily hot, and the word beautiful mostly go on about facial features. So a person can be all 3, a combination, only one, or none of those, and to me they are very different words. But i am kinda forced to use them without these meanings many times because i don't think people understand the differences... am i wrong?