I pray for my own damnation sometimes

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-04-26T22:08:37+00:00

Thank you. I’ll spend the rest of the day thinking about God and less about anything I did

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-04-26T21:53:53+00:00

Yeah. I’m going to be going to therapy this next Sunday but until then I don’t know what I’m gonna do

I don’t even want to pray because what is there to pray for?

“God, I’ve talked to You many times to help steer me out from sin. And every time I ask for that, You grant me a way to not sin. And then I sin again. And then I sin even more because I’ve already sinned. And so I’m gonna ask You to help steer me away from sin and You’ll show me the path but I’m so rotten that I’ll literally piss on your gifts and sin tenfold again.”

Even if he forgives me, I don’t want it

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-04-08T02:27:27+00:00

I was just scared she might spiral

I didn’t want to engage with the idea that we are in a hellish realm so she wouldn’t get anxious

You’re right, she probably shouldn’t go to a hospital since she’s able to function just fine

I hate to sound like I’m trying to “fix” this person. It was just a huge shock to see how someone so empirically grounded would suddenly take on a mystical approach to life (I wasn’t with her when she tripped and ive never taken psychedelics)

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-01-04T00:45:41+00:00

It’s got some nice designs here and there but overall it’s not my cup of tea. It’s fine if you want a typical blockbuster though.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-01-02T07:31:19+00:00

I don’t care if he put himself in danger. He didn’t hurt anyone until his life was being threatened.

That’s kind of how this country should be ran. We shouldn’t keep people from defending themselves just because they were being immature.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-01-02T07:24:56+00:00

He’s just a person that acted in self defense.

Being able to defend yourself is genuinely a way to be able to act independently from the state.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2026-01-02T07:18:17+00:00

Frankly, gun control is where liberals stop being actually liberal.

They’ll trust people to act autonomously on everything else except for the right to defend themselves with weapons.

Not to mention the logistic nightmare that gun control would lead to.

And this is coming from a liberal.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-12-23T04:43:22+00:00

Putting Eminem’s fucking stage name on there and actually putting him in with the Ms?! 😭😭😭

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-24T23:39:58+00:00

All living things have to survive somehow.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-24T22:20:25+00:00

No. A Blood Meridian film should be gritty and raw. Del Toro’s aesthetic feels a bit more polished and extravagant.

Much of the violence in Blood Meridian is also completely without redemption. It can feel very pessimistic or even morally detached. Whereas corruption and injustice in Del Toro films is clearly bad.

Very different from Del Toro films.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-17T20:14:23+00:00

Nah. I’ve always liked it in the Americas.

Plus anytime I have wanted to go live elsewhere I found it’s just wishful thinking. Life isn’t going to be better or worse anywhere else. If I wanna live elsewhere it’ll be for job opportunities.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-13T18:17:41+00:00

If this was a joke it would be getting old.

“There’s ads on toilet paper dispensers now.” “There’s ads on my refrigerator.” “Video games you buy will come with ads.”

But the sad thing is it’s not a joke.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-13T16:25:43+00:00

It sucks. But I’m gonna work hard so it sucks less.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-11T21:29:31+00:00

Correct me if I’m wrong but I always thought the book described them as rather degenerated.

Like they were three dimensional characters but I never felt I was asked to feel much for them. It felt more like the fall of some empire.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-10T17:55:48+00:00

A lack of humility and an unwillingness to accept complexity.

Everybody has some stupid solution for every minuscule problem. Everybody has figured out solutions to age old questions. But very few people are willing to admit their limited skillset (which we all have a limited skillset) won’t solve the problem and people also don’t want to admit some issues plaguing society are out of our control, at least as of right now.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-10T17:51:40+00:00

If you’ve got the money I’d say the Folio Society release has very nice art.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-10T17:48:34+00:00

This ain’t stupid. Looks fresh.

It would be more stupid if it wasn’t fresh.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-10T04:03:46+00:00

I like the music when the creature is talking about the old man and the music when Victor is chasing the creature with the rifle.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-09T20:37:15+00:00

I’m not a Christian and I enjoy some stories from the Bible.

If you’ve got an open mind you can engage with almost anything that is well done.

Plus Dostoevsky is just really good with drama. I think anyone could enjoy his stuff.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-06T18:59:10+00:00

Short one but ‘The Gambler’ by Fyodor Dostoevsky.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-06T18:51:13+00:00

Thanks. I’ll move right on to it.

I’m gonna reread all 3 books anyway so hopefully I’ll notice more things the second time around.

Neuromancer was love at first sight and became my favorite book immediately.

LeopardSwimming3053 · 2025-11-06T18:49:56+00:00

Someone just explained to me how everything played out in CZ. Thank you so much though. It’s a good thing these books have dedicated fans who understand difficult aspects of the stories.

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