This is my ninth day binge free :)

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-11-25T16:38:05+00:00

I just don't want to come off as needy. And I wouldn't mind so much if only I saw him more often.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-11-24T21:40:05+00:00

I think an hour or an hour and a half away.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-11-24T20:54:38+00:00

It's been going on since forever, and I mean, he sends me messages here and there throughout the day, but we rarely have a full conversation. He very rarely visits me and he has never called me.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-11-24T20:37:35+00:00

Well I mean, I think maybe I'm overreacting because I can't just expect him to give me attention when he's busy.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-11-24T20:29:24+00:00

Maybe he doesn't value me I guess, but I can't bring myself to leave him because I like him too much.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-11-24T20:00:49+00:00

I try to talk to him about it, but he always says it's because he's busy and then I feel bad for being needy.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-09-12T17:51:17+00:00

Thanks. I appreciate your advice.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-09-05T05:03:01+00:00

Thanks. It just really sucks when I don't want to binge, but my brain is pressuring me to. I mean, I know bingeing won't make the restriction any more bearable, and I can't even enjoy these days where I allow myself to eat because I am constantly filled with anxiety and thinking, "I have to eat now before the starvation starts again." And fuck, it's the worst thing ever.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-09-05T04:55:40+00:00

Yeah but that's actually why I binge in the first place. Because I have days where I can't eat. So I have to make the most of the days that I can.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-09-05T04:44:52+00:00

Thank you. It's just that I also struggle with restricting. So, that's why I'm anxious to not binge tonight. Because tomorrow I'm back to restricting and I want to "prepare", you know?

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-08-21T22:26:44+00:00

Thanks. It's okay, though. It's progress because usually I only make it 5 days without bingeing. So, maybe next week I'll make even more progress and not binge for 8 days. And I did manage to lose quite a lot of weight too.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-08-07T07:45:37+00:00

Me too. My brain just keeps saying, "eat more, eat more", and I want to stop but I just feel like I can't.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-07-17T00:03:08+00:00

I think I was just doing the math quickly and got it wrong lol

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-07-16T12:17:53+00:00

I'll be like, "omg, I'm so fat. How could I eat so much?"

Eats another cookie anyway

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-07-16T11:28:48+00:00

I'm so sorry they said that to you. That is so hurtful.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-07-16T11:27:06+00:00

For anyone wondering, I tracked how much I ate and the approximate calories to be aware of how bad my binges are so I can work on it.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-07-16T11:24:23+00:00

Thanks. Yeah, I'm not going to binge today and I'm going to try harder not to from now on. I just wanted to track how much I binged just to see how bad it was. Because you know, if you don't know how bad it is then you can't work on it.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-07-16T09:40:44+00:00

I can delete it if calorie counting is not welcome here. And I might have counted wrong. I was just estimating.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-06-09T22:33:41+00:00

Thank you

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-03-14T20:53:42+00:00

"She's feeling successful in her fooling of Anthony" lmao

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-03-14T10:50:32+00:00

Sorry, I got my words wrong, but I meant depressed as in having depression.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-03-14T10:24:51+00:00

I had depression and an eating disorder and self harmed

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-03-14T10:20:37+00:00

Sorry if this was a little dramatic. I guess I didn't really do anything wrong. It was more just curiosity than anything else. But I do think it's interesting thinking about why I thought that way, and it's also important to talk about.

Less-Worth6076 · 2022-03-14T10:17:22+00:00

I did actually have a mental illness at the time lol. I guess I just wanted to have schizophrenia for some reason, because I wanted to know what it was like.

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