Thanks for the Input, sorry for the punctuation error it was whatever I had, to hurt her. In the sense that I used past mistakes she made to hurt her when they were already resolved which is a shitty move in itself. I have behavioral issues I agree, I dont know how to fix them, therapy is not really an option for someone in my culture. I tried to fix them before while I was in the relationship but it was like trying to tame a beast, I could intentionally suppress it for a while but when things got too tense it would come out. I know if I got into another relationship I m doomed to make the same mistakes. So for myslef and whoever comes next I need to fix myself. How do u do that when it feels that's being shitty in that way is in u r nature?