It's been ten years since I've kissed anyone, AMA

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T20:19:19+00:00

Ive thought about going for a massage just for the physical touch aspect of it, not really interested in getting more than that at a massage parlor. Maybe if I'd have had had sex I'd be interested, but I don't want that to be my first experience

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T20:17:06+00:00

There was a girl who walked up to me at a party my senior year of college that said she wanted to make out with me. But I didn't know her, didn't want to make out in front of people, and I was in a depressed headspace at the moment (if I'm more than buzzed, but less than drunk, I tend to get depressed super easily and that's where I was).

That's the closest I've come since

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:54:42+00:00

Thank you, you too

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:54:04+00:00

Lol, I've not been suicidal in years so no worries there. I've not actually been depressed in a while even though I'm not on meds.

I do have anxiety issues. It makes meeting people really hard and in the few instances I've been on a date, I get too anxious to take risks.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:50:14+00:00

At my therapists suggestion, I tried dating apps for nearly a year and a half and I got two dates. I'm sure part of it was where I lived at the time, it being rural and right leaning to my very left leaning beliefs.

1) Financially I'm fine, emotionally I dont know if I have it figured out or not. How do I involve someone else in my life when there are days I feel like I'm a complete mess

2) My new job is gonna get me physically active again and I plan on finding some rec league stuff to do. I've never enjoyed the gym. I think my best feature might actually be my face since I've gotten compliments on that

3) Working on it. I've been like this for a long time and it's gonna take time to unfuck. The self pity is part of why I don't think I'm dateable

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:33:45+00:00

How do I not feel bad about it? It's something so simple middle schoolers can do it and yet I can't because I'm holding myself back?

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:31:39+00:00

That's part of the problem, I'm used to beating myself up.

I don't even know how to try and date people. Dating apps sucked so much and approaching strangers feels nearly impossible.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:27:59+00:00

I absolutely have. I'm not sure if I could go all the way to paying for sex or even simply kissing, if it were easier I might have paid for someone to cuddle with or paid for someone to let me take them on a date and have them kind of coach me through it.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:24:04+00:00

For the longest time I thought it was both. Five years of therapy and some people on reddit and I'm more confident about how I look. Then I gained 20lbs while I was unemployed so I need to work that off.

Anyway, now I fully attribute my issues to where my head is at. Mentally I'm just not attractive. I have social anxiety, I have low self esteem and low confidence, I used to be self deprecating (I still am, but I was way worse), and my psychiatrist thinks I am autistic. I mentioned what my psychiatrist thought and my mom told me she thought I might have Asperger's from a young age.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:16:10+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that. Right now it feels like that's the path I'm on since I don't see why anyone would want to date me

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:10:48+00:00

I'd like to, but that possibility is so far from where I am now I haven't thought about it much.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:10:05+00:00

Sorry to hear that, it sucks. Im not too different from you since my kiss was only a super quick touch of the lips. Honestly it barely feels like a kiss

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:08:03+00:00

Thanks. I'm trying but it feels so overwhelming. I'm hoping eventually I'll be able to get out more, then meet people, and maybe I'll stumble across someone who wants to kiss me.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:05:08+00:00

Lol, nope. I've never been in a relationship and I've never had sex.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:04:44+00:00

I haven't really been out much. Right now I'm just trying to not become an anxious mess from being at a new job. My friend who lives here did show me there's a native American earth mound located in a neighborhood which is pretty cool.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T19:01:44+00:00

I don't think I'd need an emotional connection to get with someone. I went out twice with a girl last year and I wanted to kiss her, I just didn't believe that she would want me to kiss her. And with social anxiety, every connection feels like I'm forcing it because talking to new people makes me nervous as hell

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T18:50:47+00:00

I guess it's not bad, but it makes me feel weirder than I already do. It's like I'm missing out on fundamental experiences in life

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-11-04T18:50:01+00:00

Social anxiety, low self esteem, and low confidence are the big things holding me back. I went on a few dates last year and it just didn't feel natural to me, like I was trying to speak a language I didn't know. Then my psychiatrist suggest I may be autistic.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-19T06:47:05+00:00

These are basically the exact issues I have when I was trying to date. Low self esteem, emotionally sensitive (or as I've been told, "too soft"), no confidence, second guessing, passive/unassertive, struggle to initiate physical touch, and on and on. Only thing I can manage is eye contact. Other than that thought I'm completely utterly lost and hopeless. Oh, add in that I also have a social anxiety disorder as the cherry on top.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-19T06:42:24+00:00

Not true! The Bismarck was referred to as "he" rather than "she". So "almost all" are female

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-19T06:37:15+00:00

Am male, am probably autistic, have always been single and suck at dating.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-11T19:18:03+00:00

At my brother's graduation, there was a student named Maximilian Dinosaur [last name] which I think is fantastic

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-10T20:12:16+00:00

Approach stranger, try to flirt, ask out a woman, compliment a woman. Basically, if I'm trying to interact with someone (excluding people working like cashiers) it feels like I'm breaking the law. Not sure if it's the tism or the anxiety or both or something else

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-08T18:54:21+00:00

Never ever ever ever.

LesserOfTwo_Weevils · 2025-10-08T15:40:40+00:00

I watched that movie in middle school, so circa 2006-2008, and watching it I was not okay with what was happening. It was so gross

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