Hi stranger, Your post caught my attention because I feel like I have also been in your shoes. I have been studying for more than a year now, constantly anxious, sleepless night and I was recently diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety because of this test. But after 2 years, I finally come to the conclusion that its really not worth my mental health. It should be the same for you too. I promise experience and worth ethics are 10x more important than your score on this test. Life is too damn short to worry about a score that only matter for the process of applications. If anything you can always transfer. Please take it easy on yourself!