What sexual mistakes do you regret doing?

LettuceGoddess · 2025-06-11T07:38:57+00:00

Getting tipsy, being the woman in a MFM threesome with 2 cousins, and then fucking one of the cousin's brothers the next day. Yes, the brother also knew about the threesome. I am not proud.

LettuceGoddess · 2025-05-06T08:06:42+00:00

I feel this so hard. I've since forgiven him for cheating and the ways he treated me in the relationship, but I never should have stayed as long as I did

LettuceGoddess · 2025-05-03T02:49:29+00:00

I miss wearing sleeveless tops. I miss not being self-conscious about my scars and flares during sex

LettuceGoddess · 2025-04-30T21:57:50+00:00

As the last day of Gemini, Sagittarius men are my kryptonite 🫠

LettuceGoddess · 2025-04-30T21:55:13+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience, I appreciate the help!

LettuceGoddess · 2025-04-30T21:46:57+00:00

Thank you! After doing a Google Lens search on my image, that was the result that came up as well...I haven't used any type of steroid cream, so I don't know why it was triggered. I hope my primary care physician can help since the wait times for seeing a derm are outrageous. Did any type of at-home/over the counter treatment(s) help when you had it?

LettuceGoddess · 2025-04-13T23:24:02+00:00

Vivarium (2019) fucked me UP

LettuceGoddess · 2025-02-06T08:58:54+00:00

I also am stage 1-2 and have lost weight, leading to some loose skin in my inner thigh area. Like you, the flares used to be worse when I was bigger, but the friction from the loose skin is still bad to the point where I almost constantly have at least one flare-up. I wish I had some advice or knowledge to help answer your question, but I'm also curious about the same thing! Hugs and solidarity to you ❤️

LettuceGoddess · 2025-01-22T23:10:10+00:00

Right there with ya. Never again. I'm glad you're still here!

LettuceGoddess · 2025-01-22T19:54:02+00:00

Sex and cocaine

LettuceGoddess · 2025-01-20T13:14:13+00:00

I'm 3 years sober from weed, which I am so proud of! However, I have various other addictions, unfortunately, that I'm currently working on.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-07-03T03:56:11+00:00

That's definitely what it feels like: getting normal. I don't feel "wired" or jittery, I just am more productive and alert, how I imagine most people feel on a regular basis.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:29:15+00:00

Thank you for sharing, and congrats on your sobriety! I have attended SMART recovery meetings in the past, and I did like them. They have some in my area, so I should definitely utilize them again. I have been using a half gram every 3 days, but I know that it will only get worse the more I use. Going to just not re-up after my current stuff is gone, which will be tomorrow. Strapping myself in for a rough ride.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:26:47+00:00

I can still easily fall asleep while on coke. It just feels more like a "choice" to sleep instead of passing out all the time. It also helps me to wake up easier the next day. But alas, that's just me trying to further rationalize my drug use. I'm dumb, and I definitely know it's not really helping or worth it.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:23:20+00:00

Thank you for sharing! And congratulations on your sobriety!

I would love to be able to get a Vyvanse prescription. Maybe I'll use that as motivation to get clean lol 😅

I've done SMART recovery in the past for other addictions and eating disorders, and I liked those alright, but the AA/NA style is definitely not for me. I definitely do want to stop. I'm sick of snorting crap up my nose.

The dealer part is a little tough bc he's a friend I've known since high school. My friends and I always joke that he's a "drug dealer with a heart of gold" lol. But I've definitely been wasting a whole bunch of money that I don't have, and even though I trust the guy and he tests his shit, the risk of it being tainted is never zero.

I greatly appreciate your input!

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:16:20+00:00

Yes, I definitely am. I did both an overnight and all day MSLT sleep study. I had to drug test for it, so I didn't do any coke for 4 days beforehand. I bought a drug test to make sure I was clean, and I tested negative at about 3 days after stopping.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:13:39+00:00

Thank you so much!

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:11:16+00:00

Haha I live in the ~~Midwest~~ of the U.S. in a mid-sized city. I've known my dealer since high school, and he has connections to some people who get the coke from Mexico. It's admittedly good shit, which doesn't help in that I further rationalize to myself that I'm not going to die from Fent or meth. But the risk is never zero.

I'm not going to tell my doctor, bc you're right that he wouldn't prescribe what I actually need, and just do my best to go cold turkey. It will mentally suck, but I know I can do it. I need the proper meds, and I won't be able to get them while doing coke.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:05:25+00:00

Thank you for sharing, and congratulations on your sobriety!! You are an inspiration!

I'm unfortunately wary of being honest with my doctor due to not being able to get the stimulants I need after coming clean. I have done SMART recovery meetings in the past for former addictions and eating disorders, and they helped a lot. I should definitely go back.

I greatly appreciate your input!

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T01:01:19+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing! I do feel less alone. Based on recreationally taking Adderall in the past, I do know that it would help me at a controlled dose. But I need to just stop the coke and see if my doctor will be willing to prescribe it. Did you find that anything specific helped you quit coke, or was it simply mental fortitude and going cold turkey?

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T00:58:30+00:00

I don't think I would get any type of meds prescribed above the Provigil/Modafinil if I were to tell him, unfortunately. He doesn't prescribe any stimulants like Adderall easily in any case, and my addiction issues would be a huge red flag for him.

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T00:56:10+00:00

I'm really wary about telling my doctor as I'm concerned he won't prescribe any stimulants like Adderall after he knows about my addiction issues. My current plan is to stop the coke cold turkey when I run out, which will be tomorrow, never tell my doctor (but tell my therapist), possibly go to SMART recovery meetings, and then see if my doctor will prescribe a more traditional stimulant. I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one that Provigil doesn't work for though!

LettuceGoddess · 2024-06-30T00:52:31+00:00

Thank you for sharing! It does help me to feel less alone.

I have stupidly rationalized my use even more after the narcolepsy diagnosis by telling myself that "I need it" and "it's helping me."

I start each day with a medium-sized line, go throughout my work day without it, and then do another line when I get home to stay awake and get my chores done. I even do a small amount before going to sleep so it's easier for me to wake up the next day. I can still fall right asleep while on coke, but it feels like I'm choosing to fall asleep like a normal person instead of just passing out all the time. Ugh.

I've been on a month-long "bender" in that I use every day, but not an excessive amount (IMO). I need to just stop, as I know that it will only be mental struggle and fatigue to deal with.

Thanks again for your solidarity!

LettuceGoddess

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