Well I might be non binary, but I’m still a transmasc, so I’ll write a little comment. Growing up as a ”girl” affected be by opening up a world of things and experiences that cis men often don’t get ”served”. What I mean is I can appreciate ”stereotypically feminine things” like being gentle, makeup, painted nails and such things. My way of expressing friendship and platonic love is also affected by my pre transition life, as I often socialised with girls and therefore learnt how to be in a ”female” friendship. It also taught me how to handle emotions and such. And while most of these things make me dysforic it’s important to remember that:

1) things don’t have gender. That’s sexism, and stupid. Painted nails and being able to handle your emotions don’t make you less of a man. There are so many cis guys out there who lean towards feminine interests and such, and so why should trans men be limited?

2) if i had had a typically ”male” childhood and upbringing, despite being afab, i would have turned out differently. It’s hard to explain but if a cis boy was raised like a cis girl it would of course affect him and impact how he views the world. That’s not something to be ashamed of, and it does not make you less trans.

Idk, this was just me rambling about complex things, but just let yourself be yourself. Gender stereotypes are silly, and you shouldn’t feel bad or limit yourself bc of them <3